i ought to have lots of things to say to you
i ought to be actuve and can't wait to send you a mail
to wish you a nice christmas
i ought to
but
i find nothing to say to you
so
i keep silent
write nothing
watch time go
till christmas
without saying anything to you
do i chang my mind
i don't know
i even can't realize my heart
it's funny
isn't it
maybe
i can only say here
wish you merry christmas secretly
since it's no use to be like this
or just send you a mail
with just one sentence
merry christmas
i don't know
i just wanna cry
for nothing
though i know i ought to smile
smile so happy so nice
but i can't
i know this
which melt the snow
