Bad...

I feel bad, really bad.
I have worried my love...I never want to worry him.

It made me feel more angry at myself and I could feel that anger just building and building within me.
I was already angry at myself and had already done something to show that, but it was hard not to do it or something else again.
My hands were twitching, praying for me to punch something...

So I did.

Not as hard as I wished, but it was all my body allowed in the state I already am in.
I have no control.
I'm in a weak state, physically and mentally right now.
All I think of is, "I will see him tomorrow...I want it to be now."

I'm working tonight, I hope I will be okay.

I will try go back to sleep now. (-.-)Zzz・・・・

Goodnight~

Okay!

I guess I really should begin blogging here, it's a bit more private...maybe?

Eh. My sleeping has taken a turn for the worse again.
I never used to sleep, but now I do...which is good yes, but not when every night I am waking from nightmares.
It's really horrible, especially last night...that fucked me up bad and I've been a mess all day inside. I just hide it because it's one of the things I do best (Scorpio trait).
I'm just so tired now and it's horrible.
Someone help me?
I admit, I'm scared.

I'm exhausted physically and mentally.
I want my love.

Goodnight~