あ！ 寒！

It's really cold!
It was fine until I got into bed.
Isn't bed supposed to be warm?
It was freezing last night too...
Colder in my bed than it is outside?
Ah...Maybe (-_- )

I worked today without a break...
I was working for five hours, so I was supposed to have a 15 minute break.
Didn't happen.
It was non-stop today from start to finish.
My back feels like someone punched it over and over! ＼(*｀∧´)／
But then, if I had a break and sat down, I think the fact that I was tired would have taken over my body.
So maybe it was good...
Either way, the day is finished and I don't have to work until Friday 3pm.



Today I wished more than anything to be in Lincoln with my lover.
It was a big day for him.
And after hearing about the person he saw, I wished I could have been there to at least try to calm and comfort him.
Some people are just completely out of order...
Why would anyone want to make someone's life hell?
I don't understand it.
I'll see him soon...
I don't know when...
But soon.
I'll make up for the lack of me not being around.
I'll take him out for a nice meal?
Drink?



Ah!
Now I'm rambling!
I'll shut up -laughs-

I'll go to sleep now...





サスペンス!!!




OKAY!

REALLY!

I AM GOING TO BED!


おやすみなさい!


See you later~

I don't know...

Do I go back to the counsellors?
I don't know.
I get so worked up and I end up hurting myself.
But last time I went, it made my anger problems worse and I ended up throwing my chair at the woman.

People shouldn't hurt themselves, it's sad.
I hate doing it.
I don't cut myself of anything like that.
I just beat myself up because I get so angry at myself.

I don't know.

I'll think about it.


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I'll make this half a bit more light hearted.

I'm in Chester right now.
I was born here and right now I'm visiting family for the day.



This is my neice (Right)
And my baby sister (left)
Adorable sometimes!

My friend 綾子 drew this picture of me.
I have an addiction to coffee.... 。(´д｀lll)



The Yellow child rides in style （笑）



See you later~

Fuck It

I'm fed up. Really fed up.
It seems like life really targets me.
I always seem to be on the receiving end of blows...mine and other people's.

It fucks me up,

I'm happy in certain ways, but if someone was to ask me, "are you happy?" as a general question, then my answer would have to be no...
I'm not happy at all.
I can't remember the last time I actually was happy overall.
Sad that.

Oh well.

See you later~☆