The Mirror;

Im growing,

growing in the forest in my mind

its suffering, suffering indeed

though I never stop,

never give up to grow


I see myself the reflecting in the others,

the reflecting mirror

bleed as I bleed,

smile as I smile




I've got my letter back wchich I wrote to Franziska last christmas.
Wrong address.
She's back to Sweden in 4 weeks to finish her study.
We are on our way. She do her tasks, so do I.
I just cross fingers to our future have clear sky.



I really wanna back to see you

the more you accept me,

the more I afraid of the end of relashionship

so I end up breaking it myself



I would want forever without ending,

without ending never makes thing ever

I need to learn distinction between love and ego

the sense of love not comes from ego



how much I told I love you,

it never reach the truth


love is ghost

myself is crap

Dedicated to My dear friend...

Dedicated to My dear friend by Curly Giraffe feat. cocco;

i still remember the sky you faded away,


i still stumbling the day you left.




people always laughing at me,


wind always blew me away.



friends always brought me down,


flowers always ignored me.



set me up,


set me up with your beautiful smile.



lie,


lies to me for nothing.





the sound you make will erase my fear,


the sound you made would grow my anger.




hatred,


is still the darkest sea.



the love,


that i never get to have.




sing, sing to me



untill my obsession die out,



sing, sing to me


until my road ends.

when..

when im dead,


what will be left


children, memories, words, thoughts, blood...


kinda terrified little bit to think of it


what im terrified is not a nonexistence but the proof prints of my life behind me



nobodies know the fire inside me

want to kill you, want be killed,

nobodies know the desire almost overwhelmed

want to destroy all of it, want be raped,



im going under with my barefoot


i can't live at all