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Baiklah, lo pernah gak ngerasain perasaan yang aneh. Misalnya kesel, sedih, kecewa, dan pengin marah tapi ga bisa. Nah kalo lo pernah ngalamin ini, berarti kita sama. Lalu setelah gue survey dibeberapa website dan ebook, ini ternyata cuma menstruation syndrome. Yah kalo lo cowo dan lo ngalamin ini mungkin lo..... OKE ENGGAK GITU OKE SORRYY. :DYap kayaknya post ini cuma berlaku buat cewe, karna yang gue survey cuma untuk cewe ofcourse karna gue cewe *lol*. Alright. Gue selalu terbawa ke masa lalu kalo lagi stress + lagi menstruasi, makanya perasaanya makin campur aduk!. Gue gak ngerti cara nulis jurnal, tapi anggap aja ini jurnal ya :D.1. Gue merasa bener-bener terbawa masa lalu, masa masa jatuhnya keluarga gue. Jadi keluarga gue bukan keluarga yang sempurna kaya kalian*mungkin* bukn terdiri dari ayah ibu dan anak, no. Lebih ribet dari itu. Gue bener-bener stress plus dicampur sama masalah yang lagi gue hadapin, Selalu dan Selalu kaya gini. Jatohnya gue jadi depresi. NO depresi gue beda sama depresi yang ada di pikiran lo. Depresi gue ini lebih ke arah kegiatan yang bermanfaat bagi gue, cuma waktunya gue tambahin, sehingga gue ga punya waktu banyak untuk di rumah. Sekalinya dirumah juga cuma di kamar dan paling sibuk sendiri, tanpa interaksi dengan orang rumah. 2. Gue selalu merasa kalo gue sendirian, walaupun gue punya banyak teman. Gue tau, sikap gue yan kaya gini bakalan bikin teman-teman merasa kalo dia ga dihargai sebagai temen *ciiiaaaa. Tapi mereka gak pernah tau kok soal ini, karna gue gak pernah cerita tentang masalah yang kaya gini ke mereka. Gue takut aja membebani pikiran mereka, *APASIH ASTAGAWK*. Jadi gue ga pernah cerita kemereka tentang hal ini.3. Mood gue bener-bener berubah kayak gak bisa diitentuin, yang tadinya gue lagi seneng tiba-tiba jadi kesel penuh kekecewaan, marahhh tapi ga bisa, yah gue cuma bisa ketawa sekenceng-kencengnya biar orang rumah beranggapan kalo gue lagi nonton film lucu atau lgi chattingan sm temen. Padahal HELL NO.4. Pernah sekali gue mikir buat kabur dari rumah tapi apadaya nyali guetidak sebesar itu. HAHAHA POOR ME. :) Malah gue pernah ngebayangin gimana kalo gue bunuh diri. Dan itu gue gak kuat ngebayanginnya, jadi gue coba buat gak inget-inget tentang point ke 4 ini.Nah setelah beberapa hari muncul perasaan kayakk diatas, gue mulai merenung. Coba lo tulis apa harapan lo setelah ini. Ternyata harapan gue masih banyak. Gue beruntung banget gak melakukan hal-hal yang ada di point ke 4. Terus tentang point ke 3, gue coba untuk beneran jadi bahagia, kaya jalan-jalan kemana gitu sendirian. Hasilnya gue seneng woyyy, padahal gak ada hal-hal spesial gitu. Dan tentang point ke 1 dan 2, gue coba untuk gak inget-inget itu lagi, gue mulai fokus ke orang-orang terdekat gue, kayak temen/sahabat. Bikin mereka seneng jadi mereka gak ngerasain apa yang gue rasain. Walau kadang pas mereka cerita tentang keluarga atau orang tua, gue merasa iri, tapi gue gak boleh berlarut-larut, YA kan? h3h3h3. yaudah lahya intinya lo harus bikin kebahagaiaan lo sendiri, karna kebahagiaan bukan untuk dicari tapi diciptakan oleh diri lo sendiri. Dan kalo lo masih percaya sama TUHAN, plis lebih rajin ibadahnya. LO curhat sama Dia :)). CYA~

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Aku kesepianRindu suasana dahuluDahulu kami bersamaMamaSayangnya hidup tak sesuai ekspektasiKu kira aku kan bahagia Ternyata mama pergiAllah memanggilnya pulangKenapaLalu aku meninggalkan kota ituKenapaAku tak punya pilihanAku tak mau jadi parasit untuk keluarga ituKu pikir tak apaAku akan tinggal bersama ayahDengan keluarganyaYang sekarangAku merasa ada jarakAku tak tauApa aku yang membuatnyaAtau merekaAku merasa sepiBahkan jika rumah ini higgap banyak orangAku tetap merasa sepiKenapaAku tak tauBahkan ketika aku bersama merekaSahabat-sahabatkuTidakAku tetap merasa sepiSeperti inikah rasanyaKesepianKu merasa hanya menumpang hidupTidak seperti keluargaAku tidak tauDimana tempat kuDimana Aku ingin merasa adaAku ingin merasa adaAku ingin merasa hidupBukan sekedar menumpang hidupTapi juga dianggap sebagai orang hidupAku tauAku bukan orang idealisAku bukan orang yang perfectionistAku bukan orang seperti ituAku bertindak spontanTidak mengharapkan kesempurnaanTidak harus rapiTidak harusAku merasa semua berantakanDikepalakuKepalakuAku merasa ada sesuatu Itu membuatku selalu malasAku ingin menggapai mimpiAku tak apa jika harus seperti iniAku percaya Allah selalu adaDia tak mungkin membuatku seperti iniTerus menerusAku harap begituAku tak tau bagaimana harus ku akhiriBagaimanaTak tauAku masih merasa sepi

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actually these are just unnecessary things.It's all about the things that i want to do.1. iwould to say thank You Allah. i'm grateful for all the gifts you have given me.I'm thankful to live in Indonesia.Allah you have shown me many blessings in my life.2. i would to say thank you to my mom and dad. Thank you for your support, thank you for everything you've done, thank you for all the love. For me you are amazing. thank you for giving me a safe place where I have grown.3, i wanna be succesful4. when i fall in love with someone, and got married with him. STAYING MARRIED FOREVER.5. buy an average house.6. have one two or three child. hahaaa7. have a warm family.8. Grow old with my husband.9. go to heaven.

How to deal with depression?

Hello everybody,alright now i would give you an important information.It's about depression, do you know what depression feels like? when you are depressed it can feel like no one understands. But depression is far more common in teens than you may think. You are not alone and your depression is not a hopeless case. Even though it can feel like depression will never lift, it eventually will—and with proper treatment and healthy choices, that day can come even sooner.WHAT IS DEPRESSION?Depression is a real illness that impacts the brain.Anyone suffering from depression will tell you, it’s not imaginary or “all in your head.” Depression is more than just feeling “down.” It is a serious illness caused by changes in brain chemistry. Research tells us that other factors contribute to the onset of depression, including genetics, changes in hormone levels, certain medical conditions, stress, grief or difficult life circumstances. Any of these factors alone or in combination can precipitate changes in brain chemistry that lead to depression’s many symptoms.Depression is a serious condition.It’s also, unfortunately, a common one. The World Health Organization characterizes depression as one of the most disabling disorders in the world, affecting roughly one in five women and one in ten men at some point in their lifetime. It is estimated that 21% of women and 12% of men in the U.S will experience an episode of depression at some point in their lifetime.Once an episode of depression occurs, it is also quite likely that it will recur. And the impact of depression can be even more severe when it occurs in combination with other medical illnesses such as diabetes, stroke, or cardiovascular disease, or with related disorders such as anxiety or substance abuse.The problems caused by depression are made worse by the fact that most people suffering from the disease are never diagnosed, let alone treated. The good news is that when depression is promptly identified and treated, its symptoms are manageable and there are many effective strategies for living with the disease. Depression and bipolar disorder are both treated most effectively in their earliest stages when symptoms are less severe.(http://www.depressiontoolkit.org)How to deal with depression?5 Ways to Fight Depression1. Exercise.Take a 15- to 30-minute brisk walk every day — or dance, jog, or bike if you prefer. People who are depressed may not feel much like being active. But make yourself do it anyway (ask a friend to exercise with you if you need to be motivated). Once you get in the exercise habit, it won't take long to notice a difference in your mood.In addition to getting aerobic exercise, some yoga poses can help relieve feelings of depression. Try downward-facing dog or legs-up-the-wall pose (you can find these poses on yoga websites). Two other aspects of yoga — breathing exercises and meditation — can also help people with depression feel better.2. Nurture yourself with good nutrition.Depression can affect appetite. One person may not feel like eating at all, but another might overeat. If depression has affected your eating, you'll need to be extra mindful of getting the right nourishment. Proper nutrition can influence a person's mood and energy. So eat plenty of fruits and vegetables and get regular meals (even if you don't feel hungry, try to eat something light, like a piece of fruit, to keep you going).3. Identify troubles, but don't dwell on them. Try to identify any situations that have contributed to your depression. When you know what's got you feeling blue and why, talk about it with a caring friend. Talking is a way to release the feelings and to receive some understanding.Once you air out these thoughts and feelings, turn your attention to something positive. Take action to solve problems. Ask for help if you need it. Feeling connected to friends and family can help relieve depression. It may also help them feel there's something they can do instead of just watching you hurt.4. Express yourself.With depression, a person's creativity and sense of fun may seem blocked. Exercise your imagination (painting, drawing, doodling, sewing, writing, dancing, composing music, etc.) and you not only get those creative juices flowing, you also loosen up some positive emotions. Take time to play with a friend or a pet, or do something fun for yourself. Find something to laugh about — a funny movie, perhaps. Laughter helps lighten your mood.5. Try to notice good things.Depression affects a person's thoughts, making everything seem dismal, negative, and hopeless. If depression has you noticing only the negative, make an effort to notice the good things in life. Try to notice one thing, then try to think of one more. Consider your strengths, gifts, or blessings. Most of all, don't forget to be patient with yourself. Depression takes time to heal.Reviewed by: D'Arcy Lyness, PhDDate reviewed: July 2015(http://kidshealth.org/en/teens/depression-tips.html?WT.ac=t-ra)well that's all you need, hope this could help you.see you later!

Where is Indonesia?

Republic of Indonesia (Indonesian: Republik Indonesia [rɛpublik ɪndonesia]), is a sovereign island country in Southeast Asia and Oceania. It is the largest island country in the world by the number of islands, with more than fourteen thousand islands. Indonesia has an estimated population of over 255 million people and is the world's fourth most populous country and the most populous Muslim-majority country. The world's most populous island of Java contains more than half of the country's population. Indonesia consists of hundreds of distinct native ethnic and linguistic groups. The largest – and politically dominant – ethnic group are the Javanese. A shared identity has developed, defined by a national language, ethnic diversity, religious pluralism within a Muslim-majority population, and a history of colonialism and rebellion against it. Indonesia's national motto, "Bhinneka Tunggal Ika" ("Unity in Diversity" literally, "many, yet one"), articulates the diversity that shapes the country. Despite its large population and densely populated regions, Indonesia has vast areas of wilderness that support the world's second highest level of biodiversity. The country has abundant natural resources like oil and natural gas, tin, copper and gold. Agriculture mainly produces rice, tea, coffee, spices and rubber. Indonesia's major trading partners are Japan, the United States and the surrounding nations of Singapore, Malaysia and Australia.(Wikipedia.com)

Coretan kecil.Kayaknya sih

So now i'm gonna tell you about me. I know it's unnecessary but yeah let's see.First of all,my name is nabilah but remember this one i'm not nabilah jkt48 nor nabilah syakieb. I'm nabilah sarah azhar, then you can call me whatever you want. Well, i won't tell you about my family because it's too complicated. And the second one is 5 facts about me.1. i was born in jakarta on october 10th 1998.2. i just finished my final exam last wednesday and wish me luck!3. I'm indonesian4. I speak in indonesian, english, a little bit(basic) japanese and french.5. I'm interested in languages, chemistry, physics, math, and you(lol).

Black and white are not a color.WHY?

White and black are excluded from this definition because they do not have specific wavelengths. White is not defined as a color because it is the sum of all possible colors. Black is not defined as a color because it is the absence of light, and therefore color. In the visual art world, white and black may sometimes be defined as distinct colors. This is different from the concept of spectral color in physicsWhen we see color, we experience light of that wavelength reflecting off an object or emitting from it. For example, when light from the sun shines on your blue t-shirt, the t-shirt absorbs all of the light other than the blue light. The t-shirt reflects the blue light and some of it reaches your eyes. Black is the absorption of all visible light. This is also why your black t-shirt is hot on a sunny day. All of the colors of visible light are absorbed into a black object, heating it up.(http://education.seattlepi.com/not-list-black-white-colors-physics-3426.html)People often say that white is a mixture of all colors, because if you shine it through a prism, a rainbow of colors comes out. White light IS a mixture of all colors, but we don't need to see them all to perceive a color as white. In fact, we only need to see three wavelengths of light together simultaneously to perceive them as white: red, blue, and green. Our eyes contain three kinds of nerve cells that respond to different wavelengths of light, red, blue, and green, plus a fourth kind that responds to all wavelengths, and a fifth that responds to motion. We don't have a nerve cell for yellow. Yellow light triggers both the red and the green cells together, and our brain interprets that as yellow. If you get a magnifying glass and look at a white area of your computer screen, you'll see that it's not actually white at all. It's made up of dots that are red, blue, and green in a triangular pattern. But because they are so small, they run together and your brain interprets them as white.The true "absence of color" is black. Black is not a color, it is a either an absence of light (hence, no color), or a pigment (ink) that absorbs all light and doesn't reflect any back (hence, no color).If you again look at your computer screen with a magnifying glass in the black areas, you will see that all the red, blue, and green dots are turned off.(https://www.quora.com/Counterfactual-If-white-is-the-absence-of-color-then-how-do-you-explain-the-color-clear)that's all the explanation why black and white is not a color. You might also find some different answers. See you later!

Ceritanya curhat. Mungkin?

17 juli 2014.Pada hari itu gue seneng banget,karena mama melahirkan adik bayi laki-laki. Tiga hari kemudian, mama meninggal. Jujur gue ga tau harus apa, ditambah situasi yang rumit antara "bapak tiri" gue dan bapak kandung. Ya jadi gue merantau ke daerah sumatera karena ikut mama. Gue pingsan dan bener-bener berharap ini itu cuma mimpi, dan gue bakalan bangun meluk mama tapi ini nyata. Gue sayang banget sama mama, dia orang yang ngertiin sifat dan kelakuan gue.Bahkan mama tau segalanya melebihi gue sendiri. Mau ga mau gue balik ke bekasi.Dear MAMA,maafin bila kalo sering bikin bete, kesel, jengkel, dan belom bisa ngebahagiain. Maafin bila, bila jarang ngungkapin perasaan bila. Bila selalu membuat jarak . Bila sayangg mama, bahkan sekarang bila belom bisa apa-apa. Bila ga bisa ngapa-ngapain selain belajar di sekolah. Bila juga gak pernah merasa kalo bila udah besar. Bila masih merasa kalo umur bila 15 tahun, umur terakhir ketemu mama. Bila bener bener ngerasa waktu berenti, emang sih berlebihan kedengerannya tapi itu yang bila rasain mah.Padahal dikit lagi udah 2 tahun ya mah. Tapi mama harus tau, bila udah bisa menjalankan hari-hari seperti biasa. Tapi bila masih merasa kosong mah. Bila tetep ibadah, berbuat baik, dan berteman dengan orang-orang kok mah. Cuma bila merasa ada yang beda aja, bila udah ga kaya dulu mah. Bila selalu Terlihat senang kok mah. Bila selalu ketawa , bila ga pernah murung kok mah kecuali kalo di kamar.Mah maafin bila kalo sekarang sering iri sama keluarga orang lain Bila cuma ngerasa ga punya keluarga sekarang ini mah. Ayah selalu sibuk, umi sibuk sama anaknya. Bila ngerasa kaya cuma seorang diri, berlebihan sih tapi ya itu yang bila rasain. Ya bila punya banyak temen dan orang-orang yang mau dekat dengan bila. Tapi bila masih merasa sendirian mah. Manusia memang di takdirkan sendiri mungkin ya mah, walaupun katanya diciptakan berpasangg-pasangan pada akhirnya kita sendiri kan ya mah?. Mungkin ini bisa bila jadiin latihan hahaha. Bila ga tau mau curhat kemana mah.Mungkin di situs jepang ini ga banyak orang yang tau, jadi gak apa kali ya mah.Gimana mah di dalam kuburan? gelap ya mah? enggak kan ya mah? Mama ga kedinginan kan? mama baik-baik aja kan ya?. Bila udah minta tolong sama Tuhan kok mah biar mama ga ngalamin yang buruk-buruk disana. Mah bila sayang mama, bila kangen mama. Tapi gak apa kok mah, bila baik-baik aja disini. Doain bila ya mah, tanggal 4 april nanti bila UN. Doain bila biar bisa masuk perguruan tinggi negeri yang bila inginkan. Oh iya mah 1 kali lagi bila mau bilang bila sayang mama.

indonesian poetry (PUISI)

BIRU DIBALIK SENJAoleh : Nabilah Sarah AzharTentang biru di balik senja.Adakah kata tersirat untuknya?Adakah kenangan indah bersamanya?Adakah suara lembut yang membisiknya?Tentang biru di balik senja.Dapatkah warna mengubah segalanya?Mengubah semua kenangan pahit.Mengubah semua suara jerit.Tentang biru di balik senja.Sudikah engkau merangkulnya?Merangkulnya bangkit dari keterpurukan.Merangkulnya bangkit dari kerapuhan.Tentang biru di balik senja.Pantaskah dia mendapatkannya?Mendapatkan sebuah kemunafikan.Mendapatkan sebuah kebohongan.Tentang biru di balik senja.Lihatlah wajahnya yang penuh senyuman.Lihatlah wajahnya yang penuh harapan.Tegakah engkau mengkhianatinya?Tentang biru di balik senja.Sebuah senyuman kini hanya rekayasa.Sebuah harapan kini telah sirna.Sebuah kenangan kini telah pergi bersamanya.

lasagna

oke ini adalahh makanan favorite gua apa lagi kalo di tambah saos kejuu , huwahhh enakkkkk bangattttt. :3

introduction

Hello everyone!, well my name's nabilah sarah azhar, you can call me nabilah, or bila and i was born in Jakarta, it is in Indonesia on 10 october 1998. And then i love writing, listening to the music, and also sleeping on my bed.well now i'm in highschool, it is in lubuklinggau, southern sumatra.Tadinya sih di Bekasi, jawa barat. Karena ada hal tertentu jadi pindah deh ke lubuklinggau.and then i love foods.Kayaknya segitu dulu yaaa, nanti di kapan-kapan gua kenalin lebih lanjut lagii okeeee, makasiiihh muachhh :*See you soon !