Antonio
Gina the counselor asked me to write a letter to you so I write it here.
I am very sad that our story went this way. I really loved you and I am very sad because of that. I wish you all the best.
I am sorry that I couldn’t understand what was going to happen before it happend but it was impossible to do so. I hope you understand this.
I tried as much as I can and this was not possible for me.
For me I don’t regret anything because I tried. I tried to create a life with my love and I failed. I thought I could make you happy, probably I was wrong. I really hope you will meet someone who manages to do exactly for you to become happy.
One thing I need to ask you is to consider my side of the story. I am NOT depressed. I am clear in my head-which is confirmed by not only one but two psychologists and also all my friends who I have asked for help in this period.
This is due to the words that you said when you were angry. I do understand that you say many things you don’t mean to, but it still really hurts, and I don’t think I should suffer from your words for rest of my life.
I also understand you thought with limit you have (we all have) of the situation and said to me to give birth in Croatia instead of Japan as I wanted but this also hurt a lot our relationship. I have had a most stressful time of my life, and I actually didn’t need to if we would have managed to talk instead of me being put on trial “or you give birth in Croatia or leave forever”.
These kind of things are too hard to accept to have it for rest of my life and I do choose to leave from this life we have together, although it has beautiful part, but to save my self as a human being and to honor the minimum right I have as a person.
I do think about our Zora of course. I thought it is maybe also better to not to put her in a family of conflicts without end than to be in a peaceful environment with one less parent. I promise with my life to grow her with my best possible abilities I have.
But when sometime it comes to deciding about her prospects, I really ask you, to listen to me without being angry so we can discuss and not fight over things. For a baby there is nothing worst than parents who are in conflict.
I am praying that someday you will understand what I am saying, trying to communicate, and be able to have a conversation.