People say many experiences would make your life better,
but honestly, there are some experiences that you would not want.
I have been going through a hard time in my love life for these few years.
I haven't got my love for almost 3 years now.
Every time I broke my heart, I become so closed and it takes time to open my mind again.
When I am in love with someone, I am always want a serious relationship.
I would like to make the person happy.
I would like to support him.
I always would like to stand by his side whatever happens.
Some people say it is too much.
Yes, it might be too much pressure.
But if you ever fall in love with someone, you should know what it is like.
Love makes you feel warm.
You cannot stop smiling.
You appreciate that you were born in this world.
But once it is gone, it is like someone pushed you from the back and you fall off from a cliff.
The other day, I met this really nice guy in the city.
He was funny, handsome, gentle and polite.
I soon liked him very much.
He said he just broke up with his girlfriend after 8years relationship.
So it is hard for him to open up his mind.
I understood that.
So we started our relationship as friends.
But on the second date, he kissed me.
Both of us were so nervous. I was able to feel it.
But it was so nice and beautiful.
It was one of the happiest days in my life.
On the third date, he invited me to his house to cook together.
As we are man and woman, there is one thing that is likely to happen.
It did.
But in the morning, against my expectation, he told me that this is too much for him. He needs some time alone.
What???
I realised that he just wanted to sleep with me.
Shit! Stupid me. I purely believed that he was the one.
This is so typical.
I so not know if he was a shitty guy, I want to believe he is a bad guy because it release my heart from him. I have got pain in my heart.
I know I am idiot, but how can I help it?
I have to live my life with another scar in my heart.
Be strong. Smile. I will be happy. I will be happy.