My computer went goodbye for a little while. I had escaped this isolation semi-unscathed. At least I haven't lost my hair or any other...vital things. I hope. *checks*
Here, let me make up for my gross negligence of this blog:
Did that work? NO!? Well then, take this; èn garde!
Every time I remember to update my ブログ, I'm always in a weird mood.
It's 2:04AM and I'm wide-awake, my mind buzzing with thoughts.
Also, I'm a little depressed still. Unsettled. I feel like taking a walk, I think I'll do that. Back in New York, a young woman (or a young anything), couldn't go out after a certain time. It wasn't uncommon to be robbed at gunpoint or even staring down at a box-cutter—I think I'd probably have been assaulted within five feet of my building.
I've seen people walking the streets, their shoes having been stolen from their feet. Isn't that sad? But I no longer live there. At least, where I currently am, it's possible to travel the streets and return home intact.
The worst that could happen here is that you're attacked by wild cows.
!!!
Do wild cows attack people!? ＼(>o<)／ Now I'm worried.
Random, also, but I finally saw 「ＨＡＰＰＹ ＦＥＥＴ」 yesterday, and it is the cutest movie ever. I love penguins!! I love penguins so much, but watching a chubby, fluffy, baby penguin dancing makes my evening. But I feel stupid, because, his dancing made my eyes tear up.
I was crying because it was cute. Somehow, this doesn't strike me as particularly normal. But I loved it! I want to see it again and again, even if I start crying like a stupid idiot.
Strangely enough, what almost had me in tears was 「JEWELS」 (アリス九號.). I finally was able to see the video (hear the full song), and it's. . . I can't describe what my original thoughts were. I was a little surprised, a little pleased, but mostly curious. I want to know what inspired that song; the approach, the lyrics—It's just so beautiful, I was taken aback. Not that I haven't grown to expect that level of brilliance from this band, but it was still surprising. I've listened to it several times now, and on every play, I become even further surprised. I can't wait for my CD to arrive, so I can finally know what the companion songs would sound like.
So, in my own little way of celebrating, I went back and began playing the older アリス九號. music. I'm not sure how it's possible for me to love so many of their songs, but I'm so beyond pleased at the evolution of this band. . . What truly surprises me, however, is that, even after listening to them since the very beginning, it's still inspirational to hear their music. I still get so stupid and happy, and it still brings me pleasure to sing along and admire every facet of the sound.
I've been on a definite music kick lately, going back to things which I've—somehow, I'm ashamed to admit—managed to ignore. Like Number Girl, カリメロ, emmurée, EllDorado, INORAN, 妃阿甦, SCISSOR, ギブス, Vizell, REDЯUM, among others.
I miss all of my friends, and I think that, at times like this, that this place is making me sick. It steals my energy and my happiness and swallows my laughter.
I didn't want to say, but I spent yesterday (my birthday) in a hospital's emergency room.
I can admit that here, to the person who may accidentally stumble upon this blog, but not in my other journal, nor my mixi. To people who may care; I haven't told my family either.
I feel at times, as if there's something inside me—There are so many things I want to say, to communicate. There are feelings that are bottled up and locked away, and if I don't let them loose, they'll overwhelm me.
