Since I am not sure who is actually reading this...
Topic #1: Happiness
Somehow this topic came up when my mom said that she pity two uncles of mine who weren't married despite reaching 50... she said that it's sad that they have to be lonely and not have any happiness.
But what is happiness?
From what my mom said, marriage is happiness. Having a family is happiness. I don't deny that it would be nice to have your own happy family and that is some sort of happiness. But I don't think that my single uncles are unhappy people at all. They hang out with their friends till late night, return home and watch their fair share of soccer. They probably live a carefree life that a lot of married men might be craving after. Their singlehood might be their version of happiness.
Sometimes I think I look at life with such clarity it scares me.
I think that humans have this "desire factory" in them. It's inbuilt in everyone. Maybe that is why our idea of happiness is always changing. When you were an infant, happiness is when you are full, clean and in your mother's arms. When you are growing up, happiness comes in the form of toys and pampering your family gives you. In your teenage years, happiness is that bit of freedom that you crave for, the little crazy stuff you did with your friends without your parents knowledge and perhaps also the raging hormones which resulted in bittersweet love experiences. The list goes on, The factory works on.
Now when you are an adult, the things you want every year changes. Be it a new car, a girl/boyfriend, getting married, having kids... it goes on and on.
So is there ever a stage where you are just happy, so that you don't have to work for something in order to be happy?
No. Perhaps only till you are dead.
Life, as sad as it can get, is a process where we chase after a whole bunch of ideals and happiness is the bits of relief we get before we go on to work for something else.
But, you can be happy if you want to be. There is another form of happiness found in every one of us. Deep in our hearts...
You will feel it when you finally tell yourself ...
"This is enough. I am Happy."
Well, I might not be Happy now but I know what it is. When you know what it is, it is just a matter of finding it.
I know my happiness.
Do you?
寝る時間もない日々もあった。
They really teach me the techniques of how do things, how tospeak to clients ... and the boss personally teaches me how to note and learn stuff from the video team too. It's really like being in a family where your older sibling or your mom will guide you along the way till you are really good at what you are doing. 
