Dear God

Dear God,

I just want to say
I will fight for your hidayah
i will give all
and try my best
so I can feel your presence in me

I will clear my mind
empty my thought
so you can fill me in
with anew
that will always stay there
untainted
and pure

because I love You

another failure

This week in Tokyo



Should i blame other people of my own incompetency?
the failure of not being able to push my own idea
to be too assertive
to be too nice
had brought me to this failure
My boss dissapointed
I look stupid
Would i be able to get this job?


It's Ramadhan..
but my heart is closed
i dunno why but i dun feel the light
i feel darkness in my heart
Help me Allah, light my life again

Is it wrong for me to wish for hidayah for other people?
while myself is in need for one
will he be able to be my saviour?
by saving him means saving my own soul too?
Allah please gimme your guidance
a clear clue
as i am merely a stupid girl