Long time no see.
Life is gettingmuch better in the city but outside of the city is still having hard time.
I am thinking....how can I believe a man.....?
I believe a man.
Always.
But they find another girl.
Always.
I am a weak person and I know I can't live alone.
I need someone who gives me hugs.
Am I asking many things?
I do not think so.
Maybe I am ugly. My ex thought so.
Looks is important. I understand that.
But...cheating. It always makes me hurt.
I just can't believe this.....
It's past one month from that day... March 11th.
Our life is getting better and settled down even slowly.
Finally, gas was back in my area. But still many people don't get back it yet.
Food, Gasoline, Water and Power are getting much much better in the city.
However, still many many places don't get their Life-line...
Many many people lost their house, job, car and family.....
still aftershocks keep hitting East-Japan. Actually, there were many today and it happened every 5 minutes after 5:30 pm.
Maybe we'll have to accept it. Maybe we'll have to prepare our mind for it....
I think many people and many countires won't forget that day.
We will be able to learn many many things from that disaster...
We deeply appreciate support from many people and many countires.
2 weeks....
We are still trying to get back to normal our life.
Less food, gasoline, nuclear plant problem and so on but the situation is getting better than 2 weeks ago.
We are being supported a lot from many many many Japanese and all over the world.
Now, I am thinking what I can do for people who lost houses or family. And I am thinking I want to do something in return for people's kindness.
I've thought we were becoming less social but it was not.
I thought Japanese are still hard worker and Japan is strong.
I'm worried about Japanese government but Chief Cabinet Secretary is working hard, I feel.
Anyway, people can not live alone.
I realized it strongly this time.
ちょうど１週間前・・・。
仕事中、とてもスゴイ地鳴りと共に大地震がやってきた。
３月１１日（金）１４：４６
三陸沖、宮城県沖、福島県沖。
３つの地震が、一気にやってきた。
机の下に隠れ、揺れて動く机に必死でつかまり、耳をふさいで、ただただ地震がおさまるのを祈るばかり。
長かった・・・。
事務所の電気は消え、オレンジ色の非常灯のみとなった。
揺れがおさまった頃、散乱する書類や棚を踏み越え、迷わずすべての荷物を抱え外に。
とても寒い日で、３月半ばなのに雪が降っていた。
１時間半・・・雪が降りしきる中自宅まで歩いて帰り、家族と再会した時には自然と涙があふれてきてしまった。
幸いにも、海から遠いところに住んでいるので、津波には巻き込まれることがなかった。
でも、たいへんなのはそのあとだった。
余震の中、電気もガスも水も食糧もない生活。
避難所へいても、もらえるものはペットボトル半分の水とおにぎり１個。でも、何もないよりは、幸せだと思った。
暖房もなく、寒さと揺れに震えながら過ごした。
１週間たった今、水と電気は復旧したが、ガス、食糧と燃料、ガソリンはないままの生活。
食べ物もいつまでもつか分からず、お腹いっぱい食べる事に恐怖を感じる。
常に余震なのか、カラダが揺れていて、また大きな揺れがきたら・・・と心配して熟睡できない日々。
でも、亀裂が入っているとは言え、住む家があり、家族があり、命がある。
これらはとても幸せな事だと思う。
電気復旧後、ニュースで見て、あまりの大惨事に涙が止まらなかった。
でも、日本中や世界中からのあたたかい支援やメッセージを見て、「一人じゃない」って思ったらまた涙が出てきた。
友達からもあたたかいメッセージをもらって、嬉しかった。
今でも、余震,、ガスのない生活、ガソリン・燃料不足で先が見えない不安がある。
加えて、福島第一原発の不安があるけれど、命がけで頑張ってくれている人たちを私は信じています。
I am really bad at computer stuff.
My computer works very very slowly often.
Plus, keyboards does not type correctly often.
I have no idea how to handle this computer 
So maybe I would have to get new one 
I tried to join Twitter but it seems I need to take much time to find how to enjoy it... 
