I miss the company. The fact that i talked about anything n everything.
The complicity. Smiles with hidden promises. Sudden kisses.
Everlasting hugs. I miss the emotions. The excitement, the butterflies, the shaking hands, the shy confessions, the eager kisses, the burning nights.
I felt a little weird now. I think I have a big dream that I should to make it happen. I think I have a great passion to realize that dream.
Now I'm starting to feel a strange feeling, a feeling that I don't know whats the name. I feel all of my dreams is something I need. But, i think im wrong. The results of all my hard work wasn't really make me happy.
I thought, my life will be fine. But I feel there is something missing. Something that would make me happy (´・ω・`)。
Having someone to talk to every night is actually kind of nice . Staying up late talking about pointless things in life and laughing about the most random things . Struggling to stay up late but not letting him know how tired I'm just to stay on the phone with him, until eventually one of us falls asleep .
Hmm .. sometimes, i miss that moment. Hehehehehe ..
Had a boring chat with my mom last night, n it’s still stuck clearly in my head.
Mom: "Lupi, whats up? 've got a new friend? Already there are the neighbors who become ur friends? Already have friends in ur work place? "
Me: "Friends? not interested to make friends again. As u know mom, I don’t like to talk a lot with new people unless I was interested in that person. Hahahah .. "
Mom: "Until when u wanna be like that? Hey, if u have a lot of friends, in the future, U’ll be easy to find connections to get a better job, I guess. "
Me: "Hmmm .. don’t force me to speak. I don’t really like to talk with other people "
Mom: "Well .. wonder until now u don’t have a boyfriend. You never get along with others. Why is very difficult to talk with other people?. "
Me: Hmmm .. just skip to other topic. I didn’t feel comfortable at all when we have to discuss things like this every day "
Boring chat with my Mom last night made me think, I bad as hell? I still don’t understand, what's the problem if I don’t like talking, chatting and telling stories to people who I think I wasn’t feel comfortable with her/him.
I know, this is my bad nature, but I still feel comfortable with these.
Being quiet is my nature . I'm quiet . I don’t have many
friends . And I 'm used to doing a lot of things alone . Sometimes , people who
don’t understand my character is going to think i’m an arrogant . I rarely
start a conversation with other people . I rarely talk with others . And I
don’t care if other people think I’m a strange person , people who doesn’t talk
much , people who always kept to themselves and those who aren’t sociable . I’m
proud to be such a quiet person. I’m glad I grew up that way because it kept me
out of trouble and made me really independent and strong.
But one thing that I really hate about being a quiet person
are all of the things people will say to me :
"why are u so quiet?"
"u dont talk very much"
"wow I’ve never heard u talk before"
"u don’t like talking do u?"
If u notice a person is quiet or shy please PLEASE don’t mention
anything along the lines of “why are u so quiet?”. It drives me absolutely crazy,
I honestly don’t know why I’m so quiet or why I dont talk to anyone or why I can’t
seem to include myself in conversations. Please don’t bother these people with
those types of questions or comments!
But all of u need to know that it doesn’t apply to certain
people. Sometimes , I get the feeling that I could feel comfortable talking to
a particular person . If I started to talk and care about someone , it means
I'm comfortable with that person . I can be a good listener . I also can be a
good friend . But not for everyone .
I could be talking to someone who actively work and I
interests of certain people that made me comfortable . I could be a very nice
person if they care and appreciate all of my effort and my hard work .
I hope they stop bothering me n stop to ask me why I’m so
quiet
Today I went to the area of Mount Merapi for farewell photo shoot before resign from my office.
This place is very beautiful.
Mount Merapi seen clearly from here.
And here's a selca of me. Hahaha .. in my work uniform, no make up on
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
Red
3. What are you listening to right now?
DIV - 赤裸々ララ
4. Whats your favorite number?
46
5. What was the last thing you ate?
Rice
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Yellow
7. How is the weather right now?
Cold
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
None
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face
10. Do you have a significant other?
I think, HAIR
11. Favorite TV show?
-
12. Siblings?
One young sister
13. Height?
165cm
14. Hair color?
Black
15. Eye Color?
Black
16. Do you wear contacts?
No
17. Favorite Holiday?
Beach
18. Month?
May
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yup
20. What was the last movie you watched?
Thirteen Ghosts
21. Favorite Day of the Year?
-
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
Maybe
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
No
24. Hugs or Kisses?
Hugs
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
Yup
27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
Nia
28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
-
29. What books are you reading?
-
30. Piercings?
No
31. Favorite movies?
Titanic
32. Favorite football Team?
-
33. What are you doing right now?
Writing a blog
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Salted
37. Dogs or cats?
Cats
38. Favorite flower?
Rose
39. Been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do?
-
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
Yup
41. Have you ever loved someone?
Yup
42. Who would you like to see right now?
RUKI
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
No
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
No
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
Yup
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right-handed
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
One
48. Are you missing someone?
Yup
49. Do you have a tattoo?
No
