oh no....
my x is still sayin he wants to go back with me.
i have no idea what he is sayin.
one day he says he wants to break up and the next day he says he doesn't wanna break up.
WHICH?! って感じやし、i really don't know anymore. and he's kinda gettin anoyin
actually, i guess i don't wanna think anymore and what's more, i probably wanna stay alone like you want to.
havin a bf is good in some ways but bad in many ways too...
so good to hear that ERI's comin.
i haven't seen her more than you. prbly like for more than a year.
the last time i saw her was last year's GW so...... long long time agoや笑
まぁi agree to your idea of彼氏は作らない方向っての。
just have fun like goin clubbin and meet some cute guys笑
and don't work too hard!!
shoppin is good but take care of your body okay??
i miss ya soooo much... wanna live with you asap☆笑
well gotta sleep. i have to fix this 昼夜逆転days, coz i'm gettin really weared out笑
xoxo
sleepieee..................
helow sweetie!! how u been?
im at work now......4:45am..so sleepie....
well....i think it was gd for u to break up wif ur bf....
n im happy to hear that he understan wat u were sayin bfo n now i can say he was a nice person:) reali.... as long as u r happy im happy;)
Eri told mi that she come n visit mi end of this month........
i hope she realli will........hope won cancel;)
i haven seen her for ages!!! seriously........i don even rememba when was the last time i saw her....
i think more than 8 months ago.....thats long time huh?
amd i have to see more clear photo of her new gd lookin bf!!! hehehe.......
bt we plannin to go to the club n gona get som nice guy!!! esp for myself!!! hehehe..........
i was thinkin to get that gd lookin 舌ったらず guy at my work bt i decided not to b close wif him....
coz i think i don wan any bf now....i wan clothes n bags n shose more than guys!!
so i gatta work more hard n get more money for that:)
anyways..........its time to go back to the work.........
have to take care of アキバ系's........:(
Luv u hun!!
*MuaHkS*
わわわ！！
本人は真剣なんやろうから笑ったらあかんのやろうけど、すごいおもしろい！！
めっちゃアツイ人やなぁーーー！！全て I thinkって！！自信持ってゆってくれよ！って思いながら笑いました。
しかも沖縄でもええとか、美白命のキキに向かって何を言ってんだ！！まだまだ甘いやっちゃな笑
あーでも愛されてるんやろうなぁ？？
イマイチ押しが弱いから伝わりきってこないのが悲しいト・コ・ロ笑
でも人の感情って分からんもんやなぁ。
そんな遠い人が好きって言ってくれるねんから。
それかｷｷの魅力が溢れかえってるせいかね笑
ちなみにwhat r u goin to say?
てか超能力使えるとか、RIDICULOUS!やん笑
すっごい危ないオヤジやなぁ・・個人的に契約って何？！
結ぶの？！何を？！って感じ笑（発想キモくてごめん笑）
色んな人おるねんなぁ。。気をつけてなぁ！！
Honeyに何かあったら生きていけません涙涙
んでDeath Note知ってましたか！そうそう。ジャンプ系のやつやと思う。
さすがヒキコモリ代表笑
ちなみに最近「林檎と蜂蜜」って少女マンガを後輩に薦められて読んでんけど、あわーーーい恋がもどかしくってねぇ笑 そんなキュンキュンしてた時代っていつよ？！なツッコミ満載だけど、おもろいっす笑
まだ全巻読みきってないから、明日BOOK OFF行ってくる★
Mr.A （最初Your Aかと思って読んでて意味が通じなかった笑） のことはそうね。
he called me yesterday. and we talked. but nothin much.
yupp, i'll think a lot and if " I think i love him" 笑 than戻るだけやもんね。
today i was watchin ALLY MY LOVE and there was a scene where a man said " I can't marry that women. i know that she's sweet and nice, but i don't feel passion."
なんかねぇ。なんかズキっときた笑
P.S
EAMONの歌でおもろ！って思ったのは
Fuck all the nights, i moaned real loud
Fuck it i faked it aren't u proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well, guess what yo, your sex was wack
だな笑 u know what i mean??
I UNDERSTAND these feelingz って思った笑
っていうかおもろいメールきてんけど・・・・・
なんか、友達からこんなメールきてさぁ・・・・・
ちょっと一人で爆笑してしまってんけど・・・・
ちょっと読んでみてよ・・・・・
Dear Ms Kiｋi,
i hope this will reach you and i hope i am not too late to tell you, i quite like you....alot.
As we go thorugh different hardships and experiences thoughout life, we get older, stronger and wise, but we also get end up cynical, jaded and hurt.
Whether this be a romance, firendship or the things young people do when we are young. I know you have been thorugh alot as have i and have become jaded with life but i never regretted any of it as i met you. From all the times when you where in perth, i never forgot, although i never said anything and i hope it isnt too late now either....i was late once.... i even still have the card you wrote on my bday for me and i remember.
i think someone like you is what i am looking for in life as i think you are extraordinary as you walked away from everything. I think you are beautiful but inside you are even better. I think i want to know you better and since i know your pain, there is no need to keep revisiting it except i wish to say i hope never to add to it.
My dream is to live the simple life...in rural japan, nagoya, osaka, okinawa, anywhere!! just away from the world i guess. And if you feel any way similar to the way i feel, please sms a simple 'yes' or' no'. If your answer is 'yes' then i respond immediately and if 'no', and by right - you are freely welcome to say 'no' then sorry i shall not bother you again. My promise.
Thank you for giving me the time and reading this and it would be nice to receive a sms even if the answer is not what i may be hoping for.
Yours with truth,
-daven
p.s. i think i love u
どぉよ・・・・
参考までにこの人と私の距離を説明すると、ハウスメイトだった子の元カノの友達・・・
まあ、一緒にグループで遊んだ事はあるけど、二人でとかないし、電話とかもしいひんかんじの子でした。
日本帰ってきてからも１回も連絡とってなかったのに、いきなりこんなんきたら笑うっきゃないっしょ！！
so..........i dunno wot to do.........
そおそお、ちょっと聞いて！！なんか昨日の派遣のバイト最悪やってんけど。。。
なんかどっかの大学の教授かしらんけど、その人が外務省とか国土交通省とかに送る書類みたいなんを前の資料を参考にして作れとかいわれて、全然説明とかしてくれへんし、しかも途中で出かけて１０分置き位に電話かかってきてその都度言う事違うから結局何したらいいんかわからんくなるし、まあ、わからんなりに頑張ってやってんけど、どおやら私の解釈はあってたらしくって気に入られてしまって、留守電に４件もはいってて、個人的に契約結びたいとかっていってきて、ほんまにきもかってん！！！なんか意味不明な説明になってしまったけど、とりあえず接待しながら勉強してたようなかんじ。。。
おっさん最後には超能力使えるとか言い出してほんま勘弁してってかんじでした；；；
Mr, A のことは、そんな簡単に終わらせられるようなもんじゃないと思うし、彼奴が変わらへんともなんとも言い切れへんから、じっくり考えていくといいと思うよ！！恋愛でもなんでもやり直しきくんやし、なんでも諦めた時が終わりっていうやん？
またいつでも電話おくれ！！MIはYOUとならいつまででも喋っていたい気分やからさ！！
remember, im always there for u!!
chao:)
p.s. i know that comic call "death note" ...............its JUMP COMICS rite?
don worri, i know lots of boys comics....u know that..........hahahaha;P
gata download n listen "fuck you rite back"..........
帰宅！！
ほんと、キキには癒された！！やっぱyou're the bestだ笑
んでほんま、友情が一番大切やわ。
i always think that i can never make a guy happy and a guy will neva make me happy too
but friendship can always make me HAPPY and SATISFIED.
but as i said befo i’m stupid so i may go back with my x. maybe. after the fireworks, i guess.
but till then, i'll enjoy my free time!!笑
んで体重計買っちゃったんや？！
やってもーたなぁ。禁断の機器を。。笑
はるかも最近乗ってないなぁ。でもおじーちゃんちで相当餌付けされてしまったから
結構太ってるはず。だって二の腕とか危険なﾌプルプル感やし。
昔は顔しか太らんかったのに。。今は腕も。。
２日にゼミで琵琶湖に一泊旅行に行くんやけど
水着着るのが辛い。。ただでさえi have nothin on my chestやのに！！笑
まぁキキはstop eating chocolates and sweet junk foods and that will help uだと思う笑
ちなみに今の気持ちとはちょっと違うんだけど、ちょっと面白いANDどっか共感できるEAMONって歌手の
”FUCK YOU RIGHT BACK”って歌詞載せときます笑
結構かわいい曲やし歌詞もキキなら分かると思うんで暇だったら聞いてみてちょ★
http://www.bestlyrics.net/E/0/Eamon/Fuck-You-Rig
んじゃ今日は疲れちゃったので今から寝ます！！
あ、そうだ。同じ日に友人二人から勧められたDEATH NOTEって漫画を読んでんけど
なかなかおもしろいでー！！むっちゃハマった笑
よかった！！
ぱるが大丈夫そぉで安心した☆☆
そおそお。恋愛なんて友情に比べたらなんでもないのよ！！
友達がいちばんだべさ！！
今日あのあと体重計買いにいったのよ～
そしたら・・・・・・・・
２キロも太ってた・・・・・・・・
嫌～～～～～～～！！！！
知りたくなかった・・・・・（；＿；）
まあ、ゆっくり落としていくわよ・・
あ！！写真送ってほしい！！
雷門＆水族館のん！！
ちゃんとBIGなやつを見たいし（＾＿＾）
んじゃ、よ・ろ・ぴ・くっ！！
Remember.
im always there for u!! *sign*
*MuaHKs*
髪切った！
i got hair cut yesterday!! i wanted to cut more bt everybody stoped mi so i didn.......
bt its okie, coz no more splits:) beautiful hair!! hahhahha...
how was the "Sex and da..........."? did you watch?
well......i asked my mom to watch...hahaha...
cant watch together bt can shere the fun, i guess....
is that true my english gettin beta?
erm...................i don think so.....
coz i used english at work(to our customer at 漫喫）
bt i felt reali suffer to explain our sistem............
is thats because im no speaking? i mean i have to translate from japanese?
or im starting to forget how to speak english?
anyways.........u mean ur bf is saying that he loves you more than bfo rite?
if so....do you feel his love? more than bfo?
for mi...it seems like he is just getting more selfish......
before is like you guys just started to goin out and try to respect each other.
and i think彼も自分をもっとはるかにいい男と思って欲しいってのんがあったと思うのよね？
でも、それにもちょっと疲れてきたっていうか、馴れ合ってきたっていうか、
相手を尊重する気持ちってのんがなくなってきてるんだと思うわけよ。
気付いて自分の非を認めるか、それともほんまにそんな考え方しか出来ひんのかは、
かれ次第やし、なんともいえへんわけやけど。
時間をかけてすこしづつでも解っていってくれんねんやったらいいねんけどね。。。
well......i gata take shower. im swettie and stinck!!! hahha.....
bye hun!
MuaHks*
thinikin n thinkin n thinkin.... BLUE!笑
いやいや、やりすぎとかないから笑 てかむしろえっちやだなぁーくらいの笑
そうそう。それっすよ。
ほんま今から働くって時やし、しかもこの前の内定者会で実際の仕事の企画とかやってみたりさ。
すごい楽しかったんよ。予想外に。
だからうちは丁度lookin forward to workだったのね。
それなのにi can't imagine my life just supporting one guy. and waitin for him to come back from work. and doin nothin till that.
how can i find "joy" in such life?
yes i really hav to talk to him. but when i try to talk about this he says that he comes from a very 日本的な家, meanin that he can't change his mind.
so i said”あーじゃぁアメリカ育ちのフェミニストな帰国子女でごめんねぇ”って。
でもほんとはそんなとこじゃないと思うの。
どんな家から育ってても、考え方なんて気持ちの持ちようやんか？
そうじゃなかったら日本の家庭は現代でもみんな感情を顔に出さず武士みたいに生きてるのかよってなるやん？
ほんまにkikiの言うとおり「男尊女卑」も甚だしいと思う。
i don't wanna be a bird in a cage. i wanna enjoy my life until i now that i have enjoyed or till i have babies.
yeah, and he wasn't like this befo.
he used to say " do what eva u want.. i trust u" and he says the reason he said so was that it was becoz he didn't like me as much as he does right now.
and in his idea, he thinks that i don't like him as much as i did befo.
so now, wheneva i 反抗？するto him, he keeps sayin "you weren't like dat befo. you've changed."
でもTHIS IS ME and if he can't get it i think there's no future..
まぁそんなこんなで悶々としてるわけっすよ笑
キキに会いたい。。。涙
てかこの前の日記から気づいてたんだけど、キキ英語上手になったなぁ？？
英検の勉強したからか？？文法が前より断然正しくなってる！！
ちょっとうれしいやん笑
そしてＳｅｘ ａｎｄ ｄａ来週は見るんで、（テスト前やけど笑）感想教える！！
ちなみに今週のはこの前キキんちで見た「背が低いだけで男をＤｕｍｐするべきか否か」ってのと、Ｓａｍａｎｔｈａ？のファイアーファイターとの恋愛のやつらしい笑
丁度いいとこからスタートしてるみたいや！！
helow:)
hellow buddie!!
u hurt ur back!?!? やりすぎ！？（笑）just kiddin.....:P
so hows u n ur bf?
っていうか、「結婚したら家入って」とかまじでありえへんねんけど！！
なんなん？？特に今の時期とかみんな就職決まったとこでさ、まだ働いてもいいひんわけやん？
彼もまだ働いてないし、これから仕事頑張って行こうって言うときに既にそんなん言ってるとかほんまありえへんねんけど！Whats that mean Support?? he means askin you to stay at home and clean house and wash his clothes and cook dinner and wait him to come back rite? And he askin you to do that every single day. over and over.....I tell you, that is really no life you know. 鬱になんで！！
っていうか、男が働くって誰が決めたんとか言う前に、そんなんで「フェミニスト」やとか言ってる時点で彼は既に自分が「男尊女卑」やって宣言してるようなもんやんか！ほんまにありえへんねんけど。
いつの時代に生きてると思ってんの？ってかんじ。昭和初期じゃないねんからそんな古い考え方してたらあかんで。。って言ってやってくれ！
sori for sayin bad about your bf.....bt i reali cant understand him....
and really don wanna him to hurt you!! bt its important to talk more and know each other. even if you guys huv to argue. if he said you changed from bfo. say same things to him.
he wasn like that bfo. isnt it? he was more understanding. i wish he will understand what you sayin.
well....at least try to. and hopefully change his mind....
well....gatta go sleep baby.
hope you will b alrite.
luv ya
nitenite:)
p.s. Watch Sex And Da...............and chat wif me abt that!!!!
腰がいたい。。
thanx for lettin me stay at your place!!
i had a great time too!
and yes, it is too bad i couldn't bring the TOBITA guy.
He's amaaazingly あほ笑 and i bet you'll luv him.
i dunno if he's gonna work in tokyo. he said maybe in Shizuoka but he's still continuing his job hunting so どうなるやら・・・まぁでも多分関東かな？ていうか、来てほしい。あほすぎて癒される笑
yeah! i wanna live with u too!!
and i really hope my bf and i'll be okay. doin my best, doin my best.. !
まぁ、i have lotz n lotz of things to talk... i already miss you ...涙
ほんと、you make me so happy and relaxed and i still don't know how the hell you do that笑
u know? my bf's acting sooooo wierd recently, like asking me do i still like him とか結婚したら俺のサポートするために家入ってくれるかとか。。
i mean, 男に従うために勉強してきたんじゃない、とか誰が『男が働く」って決めたの？とか言うと、
he'd say " you were not like that before. now you talk like a feminist"とかって怒るの。
でも間違ってないよね？？
むしろ、満足いくまで好きなことさせてくれない人とはi can't marryってトコなのね。
だからI'm very upset.....
ほんと、if he makes me cry again, PLEASE kick his ass as hard as you can!
i won't stop, so go ahead笑
well, gotta sleep too☆
miss ya so much babe.
take care, and sleep !! お願いね笑
xoxo haruka