Tomorrow is my birthday

But now, i am crying like gell, i am really sad

i dont know what i should do

everything i do does not seems to be right

its not that i do not want to get the apartment confirmation

its just that i am in the middle..

why are u forcing me?




what am i always different from normal children

i have to bear with things that normal children do not need to worry about..

i have to do things that they do not have to do

i have to be worried...


my mind is not with me anymore.



i am sad.. i am crying...

i am lonely...



can anyone please tell me what should i do...






who am I ?









I need someone who I can talk to......








Today!!

Today I missed a few classes ..


Erm slept at 4am and woke up around 12

great

and i haven shower T.T


going to bank now.. later to the post office and get my stuff

and then go to the korean classes

haven got there for 1 week

aiks

that's bad and should not be a habit



today UPS came again and i was not even care enough to wake up..


well.. besides i am buying over the leftover of NUE cd FROM FAYE..

hmmm that's all and cya

End of March ~

Now it is already the end of March ...


What I am feeling now..


I am sad and frustrated..

I hate what i AM right now


Things just does not goes right

Why am I so lost..



Things do not go in the way I want to


I am lack of determination and strong wills.


I do not like it in any way..


Nowadays I am helping with the japanese disaster and in the first event in Stephen Shopping Mercer,
We got euro 14000 and in the second event in the liffey valley shopping center, we got around euro 11700.

I am very glad with the amount we got and I got to know a lot of new people..

I love to drink..

I have the urge to drink every other and then..




I just lost my way and direction..



Another charity event on friday, selling bakery stuff..

one word abit useless?

with the amount that we are using and the pricing at we are selling

we are not going to make out of it..


idiotic again..



idiotic...

i am just sad and ...



i dont know




i have lost my way