Truth between the lies.
Tomorrow is my final examination.
I hope, i'll do very well for the last this time round.

God, Please let me score well.
I need to score high.

I really hope tomorrow everything will be fine.
Please give me courage and more strength.
I am so afraid for tomorrow.
Hope that i will do well. ニコニコアップ

Good Luck!!
Yesterday, it felt like a knife stabbing.
Stabbing deep into my heart.
I thought it will be my toughest period.

There's many ups and downs in life.
Even i felt so let down.
I need to be strong.

I can't bear.
But you're not good either.
Why have i met you.
Maybe i don't have to go through all this if i never had met you.

You're a part of parcel in my life.
A past by stranger.

I don't know you anymore.

I feared in the past.
As time goes, i may forget you.

But not now.
I need to fend for myself.
Because you're not a good man either.

How much time i need to recover this pain.

A good man to love me faithfully.
A good man to concerns me truthfully.

That's all.
Is that so hard.
Why is all this happening to me.
With all the fake intention.

I don't want to know anything about you anymore.
It just hurt's me.

BYE LOVE.
I DON'T WISH TO SEE YOU.

WE MAY.
IN FUTURE.

THAT'S WHEN YOU'LL SEE ME HOW GOOD AND CAPABLE I AM.

BYE.
BYE OFF.



IS STUPID TO CRY.
IS DUMB TO SAY I CAN'T FORGET YOU.
BUT NOW, I AM DETERMINED TO SAY YOU'RE NOT A BIG DEAL.
I NO LONGER MISSED YOU. NOR LOVE YOU EITHER.

YOU'RE WORSE OF ANY THING I COULD IMAGINE.
AFTER ALL THIS MONTHS, I'VE SEEN YOUR TRUE COLORS.

AT YOUR AGE NOW.
HOW FOOLISH AND CHILDISH YOU ARE.
IMMATURE ON HANDLING ANYTHING.
EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE SEEM IMPOSSIBLE.
EVERYTHING WAS A LIE.

I HAD FOUND OUT EVERYTHING NOW.
SINCE I FIRST MET YOU. YOU HAD BEEN MAKING UP LIES.
I'VE SEEN YOUR FAKE INTENTION.

YOU THOUGHT YOU'RE SMART.
APPARENTLY, YOU'RE NOT.

FINALLY, YOU'RE OUT OF MY LIFE.

I WAS ONCE A FOOL.
NOT NOW ANYMORE. NOT ANYMORE.

MY BIGGEST MISTAKE TO KNOW YOU.
BIGGEST MISTAKE.
BYE OFF.


THANK YOU.
I AM FEELING VERY UP SAD NOW.
It's 6.11 am.
I have yet half done with my research.

How unlucky i am just now.
After i paste my documents i did not save it.
WTH.
My research is GONE.
F. I got to do IT ALL OVER AGAIN.
ARGHH.

At least i manage to do all.
7 topics. I left with 2/3 more.

And lastly, before my exams on 19 dec, i need to memorize it.
At least 4 topics to remember. Be safer, 5 topic if i have time.

Oh man. Is hard to find good friends nowadays.
Selfish people worry about you getting good grades if you know too much or study too much.

This are so call schoolmates. Different age gap. working adults. selfish people.giving negative comment and mindset. telling you don't worry. you are still young.

Why are you telling me. Because you're old to tell me this.

rest not to mention.
This is what i have encounter.

How i wish that now i can still be able to study with my old classmates.
I really missed the carefree and innocent days we had been through.

We faced each other every time. even good or bad times.
We helped one another without asking for your help back.
I MISS THE PAST.
I MISS YOU GUYS!!

I am so sad.
I wish you will be here for me now.
I wish i can tell you all the unhappiness i had.
But i don't know where to start.

Pointless. しょぼんあせる
But it's just words.

I am so tired.
I want to get good grades this time now.
I really push myself hard.
I don't want to burn mid night oil.
I knew i have to be stronger.
I have to be independent.
I have to strive for myself.
I don't wish to stop.
I don't wish to fail my course and re module.
I don't have time.
Time don't wait for you.
Everything you got to learn to earn it yourself.

But.

Maybe i am just too weak to say all that out.
Exams are near soon.
I haven't done with my studies yet.

Bless me.
A GOOD START ON THIS BLOG.
EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE CHANGED.
FROM THE START ON NOW ONWARDS.

GOOD CHEER FOR ME.ちびこ。
I started to realize it is the time i should move on.



Love ourselves more.
Appreciate yourselves therefore you'll learn how to appreciate others.

Be thankful of what you have now.ドキドキ

I have learned to accept things.
In life we've been through therefore we grow up.
It's just a part and parcel of life.