Love this song <3

Not a day goes by that I don't need you in my life
Was it something that I did,
tell me why~ And I can't get pass the pain to your love is just a memory
Gradually, you slip away And all I can say it stay And somebody

Can somebody please, stop this hurt inside
Although, your love for me has changed (ohh)
After all the pain you've cost that I still can't get you outta my mind
No matter what you say I can't let go

As time goes by, will our memories fade
tell me how can you go on after all that we've been thru (ohhh)
I don't wanna go on without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you
will come back to me

I'm begging you please,
stop his hurt inside although your love for me has changed (ohhh)
After all the pain you've cost that I still can't get you outta my mind
No matter what you say I can't let go

As time goes by, will our memories fade
tell me how can you go on after all that we've been thru (ohhh)
I don't wanna go on without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you

Do I ever cross your mind Did you even stop to cry?
In my heart you'll always stay,
don't let us slip away
Tho' I've tried I can't let go you're still the one for me
We can work it out in your love I still believe
You are the one

As time goes by won't let our memories fade
tell me how can you go on after all that we've been thru (ohh)
I won't let you go on without me in your life
because in my heart we're meant to be in love
As Time Goes By


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I find myself here again~

It's been a while hasn't it? (/ω＼) I apologize for that.

Then again I am technically just apologizing to myself and I forgive myself easily so all is well.

I've had a crazy few years. I suppose the last entry came from a dark place. I was feeling rather negative and held ill will towards others.

I've come to terms with many things over the years. The loss of some, the gain of others, the highs and the lows and the in-betweens. I set out to fulfill a few goals and failed at reaching some of them but I am thankful that I was able to cross a few off my list.

My family life has finally settled into a nice comfortable flow once more. Danny is doing well. I miss him insanely much but he's a grown up and he is living his life. Eventually he would have anyway, I just supposed I wished I was eased into it rather than thrust into it from one day to the next. If you were ever to read this, I love you kiddo. You and I have always shared a strong bond and distance has not killed it. I am proud of who you are, of the strong man that walks about with confidence, with a wonderful open heart, and with intellect that can get him wherever he wishes to go. As the older sister you'd think I was the example setter but I look up to you in many ways. You have many strengths that I admire and wish I could possess.

I love all of my family though, but he's someone that I just connected with on such a level that I still trust him with anything and everything knowing that I will not be judged. (*^o^)乂(^-^*) I hope we can stay in each others lives no matter the time and the distance that separates us as we continue to follow that road in an arduous journey of our lives.


Work is...well work. I used to love it. It was exhausting but rewarding. Now it's simply a distraction. Something to keep my busy. I think a few people have succeeded in killing my drive and ambition. I don't hate work, it's something that I miss when I'm not there, but I do face stress there a lot and I don't give it more than 100% because it has become something rather unappreciated. I know 100% is what you're supposed to give it but I used to go above and beyond, I simply can't not be productive there though.

When it comes to matters of the heart I do have an issue though. I think I like someone but I'm not sure. I think I am mistaking the situation. I want to be there for him, I want to heal his broken heart. I think what it is is that I can't stand to see someone hurting. You can see it in his eyes. I thought that maybe I liked him because his smile made my heart beat faster. He makes me feel noticed (*^▽^*). Maybe that's part of it too. I like being noticed. But he's broken. He's not willing to let go and I am not without my own problems. I am probably the complete opposite of what he needs. Ugh It keeps my heart caged away in a prison of uncertainty.


MORE LATER BECAUSE I HAVE SOME SHOPPING TO DO