今朝、ルームメイトのシャワーを使う音に起されました
起きていってみると彼女は既に仕度を済ませていてもう家を出るところでした。
「もう出るの？」
「うん」
「いつ帰ってきたの？」
「今」
彼女によると昨日学校で終わらせるはずの仕事が終わらずに友達の家で更にやるはめになってしまったとの事。
彼女は体の小さな普通の女の子、いつも帰ってくると疲れたと言ってるけど実際そんなに疲れてるようには見えなくて、、でも絶対にさぼったりしない。
彼女に会うまでは自分は努力してる方の人間だとか思ってたけどそれも彼女と比べてみるとジョークにしか見えない。
今まで自分は忙しいことを理由にあげて色んなことを諦めてきた気がする、ただ忙しいとゆう思い込みで。。
自分もっと出来るはずだ、もっとやんなきゃって思わせてくれた彼女には感謝してます。
今日中に彼女が作品を仕上げて自由になってくれるのを心から願ってます。
This morning, I was waken up by the sounds that someone was using bathroom. it didn't take long for me to realize that one of my roommate getting ready to leave to school.
She is taking jewelry designing course at Georgian college. she is in the right middle of fisnishing up her necklesses for a schoolership award. she works really hard.
"are you leaving now?"
"yeah"
"what time did you come home?"
"now"
according to her, she was at her friend place, had to stay there until her jewelry is finished.
she is a small girl, she often says she is exhausted, but she never really looks like she is and she never slacks off.
until I met her, I thought I was making a lot of effort to what I'm in now, but after seeing what she does for what shi is in, what I was doing was really nothing, nothing compared to her....
I've given up so many things just because I kept thinking I was busy,,,,, but I was not, not in a million chances...
I can do more than that, I've gotta do more than this. she made me think like this.
I really hope she can get her necklesses finished today and free her to sleep in as long as she could possiblly needs.