visit

yesterday i visited my friend's house.

i was a little nervous
because it was my first time
to meet her family.

but soon i was relieved
to find out
they are very kind and warm-hearted people.

Machida is
far more fantastic city
than i expected.

we talked a lot
about music, friends,
and 'girls talk', of course.

(i wonder how to say 'girls talk in real English'...)

i should miss her in the UK.

maybe she will graduate
while i'm abroad
...so sad to imagine.

but i really hope
good luck for her job hunting.


i knew

it was over

i thought i knew

even never started

please don't find out

smile at him

should be a secret

to save my heart

forget, forget him

he's happy, anyway

future

i'm worried about my future.

my friend got engaged.

it's happy news, of course.

both of them are precious friends to me.

hope they go over the difficulties
and will be happy forever.

i'm happy to hear the news.

but my heart isn't filled with happiness.

i feel great worry about my future.

who will love me?


anyway, i need singing.

singing a song is the escape
from the past
from the reality
from the fear
from the worry

i'm always running away
from my things
facing the difficulties
only in the performance

my song is serious.

so, in the UK
i have to search for the place to sing.

i know i have nothing special.

i'm not gifted.

but still i sing.

first blog

My first blog in English.

I decided to write here all in English
as I'm going to study in England from this autumn.

I have to practice.

I told to no one about this blog.

I don't want my friends to know about it.

I don't think my English is good enough to write blog.

But anyway, no one can be better without making mistakes...


Maybe I should introduce myself a little bit.

I'm Ai, a Japanese.

I'm going to study at a university in England for a year.

I love music.


It's not interesting.

This blog.

But I'll write better and better!

See you :)