An international language that overrides cultural and
linguistic divisions.
It is intimacy, commitment, and passion.
There is love of the soul, mind, and body.
Three weeks ago I took a quick trip to Kyoto and after months of full-on research work, a break was more
than needed.
There were a couple of moments that have stuck with me since.
Our lovely hotel shuttle bus driver said this;
"I always ask this of my younger passengers.
What is the difference between 恋 and 愛?"
My friend coolly replies;
"恋は一瞬、愛は永遠"
"恋 is for a moment, 愛 is for eternity"
Theoretically I see the difference.
Have I ever experienced either?
On a romantic level? I don't think so.
I've liked; been infatuated with; been charmed by; been interested in.
But these feelings never last long.
Recently my friend posted her pre-wedding photo
shoot on Facebook.
The next day another friend sent me a text to say she's gotten engaged.
I've had friends getting engaged or married left, right
and centre.
I'm incredibly happy for them that they've found
someone to share their life with.
But why does it seem so easy for them but impossible for me.
Is it because I don't put much priority in relationships?
Am I avoiding it because I don't like to feel vulnerable
and exposed?
Or I haven't crossed paths with the right person yet?
I need to have an emotional, intellectual, and physical
connection.
Otherwise I'll lose interest quickly.
Sometimes I think it's much more effort than it's worth.
I can't be fucked.
If there's a chance it'll end someday, why bother
starting it to begin with.
I can spend my time on more worthwhile activities.
Yet I still end up yearning for company.
In Kyoto, I visited Yasaka Shrine.
For shits and giggles, I had a got my love fortune told.
"Your yearning for that person will increase the more
you hear their voice and see them.
However these growing feelings are insufficient for
making progress.
Do not just let these feeling build.
Action needs to be taken.
Love will not bear fruit if there is no effort"
Well that really hit the nail on the head.
Even if a romantic partner never walks into my life,
that's fine too.
But sometimes I get lonely.
And I entertain the thought that happily ever after
exists, and one day Prince Charming will come along
and sweep me off my feet.
So until then, I'll just enjoy the great company of
important people already in my life.
Much love,
La'Belle