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悲しいことは大切な人の幸せや充実さを一緒に喜べないこと。

いや、喜べるけど自分を気にしてないようで悲しいこと。それが遠まわしに相手から伝わってきたとき。


なんでか考えたら、やっぱり心の隅で自分のこと気にしててほしいし,会いたいておもってもらいたいし,会えなくても特別に思ってるよて思っててほしかった。

だからニヤニヤしたりするのも好きだよの何気無い一言も会いたいよてメールくれるのも全部嬉しくて,るんるんする。でも会えない分顔見れて,話せた時はかっこつけて,よそよそしくする。ほんとはすごく嬉しいのに。なんで忙しいしみんないるのにスカイプくれたかていうのは繭がバイト休みで昨日できなかったてのもあるけど、スカイプしたかったからていう理由が一番がよかった。

うーん、まだ依存してんだろうなーだめだもっとけいらーみたいに毎日充実させなきゃ！



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I just skype with my friend. im off yeateday and today. We were going to Skype yesterday but last night she said its better to Skype tomorrow so we have wednesday church and we can play volleyball. Well..I understood. but now we just skyped that she has some friends to make s'mores. So she said I don't have time so long to Skye with you so there are banco of ppl around. I don't want to be rude...so that's fine. I'm ok with that. but I start to work tomorrow and I don't have off by next Friday. So I wanted to decide which day we can see in LA next week. I didn't know what's happen to your side. Hmm..this drive me crazy. I think I cannot change this relationship yet. I should be able to change it. Hmm sucks! sucks for tonight! I wish I had enjoyed the conversation with you. I ask the response on my own. I think I should have behavior smiley. Why couldn't do that? ..pretend to your mind?..just be shy? no something like that. I cannot to say She said Monday works for us, but I want her to say what about both Monday and Tuesday..that's not big deal for her. lol I need to be independent. I cannot do this yet but i have to!






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