第三話。流浪の話。
Episode Three: A Tale of Wandering
私はただ、ただ、
家にいたくなかった。
それはまるで、自意識を失うような。
もの扱いされるような。
または、その逆で、
私を私物化するようなソレ。
ソレによる嫉妬心を抱え私に大人気のない立ち振舞をぶつけるソレ。
ソレ等は私にとって、「重荷」であった。
ここから私の自立
＝料理に繋がります。
私はだから思います。
食べるとは何か？
自分の家族を食べさせていくとは？
そんな問いに向き合いながら料理や、仕事を続けていきます。
そんな話。
I simply, truly,
did not want to stay at home.
It felt as though I was losing my sense of self.
As if I were being treated like an object.
Or, in another way,
as if I were being possessed—
claimed as someone’s personal belonging.
And the one doing so carried jealousy,
throwing childish behavior at me.
These things were a “burden” to me.
And from here,
my independence began—
which eventually led me to cooking.
So I began to wonder:
What does it mean to eat?
What does it mean to feed one’s family?
Facing these questions,
I continued cooking,
and continued working.
That is the story.