Sunlight's killing me. so sweaty.
I'm in a train, bored, so I'm gonna write this to kill time.
My college has a few gays. It's first time to have friends who isn't in the closet. They are so open. Maybe that's because they'd been overseas. They look proud of themselves. A bit jealous. My? I wanna let every person knows who I really am, but it isn't easy for some reason... I don't know.
Yesterday, I brought the topics of LGBT in our conversation, but I regret it now. it was so awkward, boy! My mom seemed that she even deflected that topics intentionally. I was.. I was at loss. Whenever I try to talk about these topics, the results are terrible. I hate my life. Do I want to be accepted? Do I want too much? Am I too sentimental or naive?
I don't know, but what I know is I should not hope so much. I won't let others in. I won't let myself rely on others.