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yooosh :)
hmm so today had been really hectic
A day of 2 quizzes, 2 practicals, graded la and chinese compre, and tuition. is. finally. over.

hehh so the match against jys yesterday 70-0
got player of the match! :D was really quite shocked but grateful to those who cheered me on <3

ohemgee akanishi jin and kuroki meisa are getting married :O gahh i dont know to be sad or happyy >(

:(

Its alrite if I crash and fall hard
Its alrite if my lungs die on me
Its alright if im overwhelmed with fatigue
But its not alrite to see you cry. Its too painful.

ö

I said "If this was a movie you'd we here by now".
And you said "Don't have to talk about movies, we'll create our own love story and it'll be a great one XD"

!

毎日すきって言われるのは要らない。
お前の存在はもっとだいじんなの。
ただこのままでそばにいてほしい。
" I dont want your presents, I want your presence. "

D:

"何か言ってよ、ペンギンの話とか、魚とか、犬とかそういうのもうネタ切れ？"

so.
i was pretty upset and pissed.
if i really meant that much to you,
you would have put in greater effort.
maybe i was just being delusional
maybe i didn't mean that much.
i'll just dao you. i won't say anything more from now on.

おお起き上がれ

時々、この体はじぶんのものじゃないみたいに感じる。 あたしいったいどうなっちゃうんだろう
こんなふうに毎日すこしずつなにかができなくなっていくの
ちーむのやくにたって、二年前と同じようちーむのためにcrosscountryで優勝して。。こんなふうに思いかいてたみらいが。。ゼロになっていくんだろう？
転ばないためにどう走ったらいいのか?

not till ten steps on court and I fall down hard.

また、転んじゃった

I swing my arms back did my fullest jump ,shoot up into the sky.. I'll intercept this one

大きく間違ったんだ

I touched the ball but it slipped off
I fell. Hard. Like usual.

転んだついでに空を見上げれば、 青い空が今日も 限りなく広がってほほえんでいるんだって。 すくなくとも、あたしは生きてるの。

悩んで

二年前のあたし、寝ても覚めても胸の中に練習する期待でいっぱいだった。今のあたしには、いったいどんな 練習がまっているんだろう...