i dont pass the audition

now i know i dont pass the audition really sad
i want to sing in front of many people dancing with all my best,i'd like to singing and dancing
but cause of this ugly face,i couldnt do it.
i have tried my best to practice the choreo
but its useless
i know that they have a connection to get there..
its really......
i dont cheat..well my father always tell me,do you know that girl?she had failed for so many audition...so you shouldnt give up..
but i should wait for the next year..
wait for a year,its really 'something' ya
maybe they will pass the next audition and meet the producer
i wanna meet him too
but God why dont you give me a chance to pass the audition?
be the 2nd generation? i want it
see? like what i've expected,she and her friend (who have the connection) pass the audition..
what the,.....
be the 48 family..i want it,meet takamina,all of that i've filled in the audition form,all of them are useless...
me..
here..
so disappointed..
sad..

galau

i dont know what to do..
honestly my heart has been hurted by you from the first time
now that girl,i think she likes you,i know she is more beautiful than me,but will you choose me ?please?am i not as good as her?do you like that kind of girl ?she always follow you everywhere you go..but i dont like that so will you choose me ? but when i realize,looking at ur eyes were looking at that girl so gently,my heart was beating so fast,its hurt. i cant explain it with words..
i know she has more supporter than mine,but this is my feeling to you,nobody could stop it,,
she said you are sweet,i think so...sometime you are sweet,sometime you are funny,and sometime too you are so annoying but thats you,i love you the way you are..
if its compare with that girl stories,its look like you "ngejar2" that girl,but i dont think you doing that,but as i see you've changed..you become more weird (i think) you are not cute like before,ah but sometimes you do..but i think when we were at 9 grade,you are always cute,but now just sometime..
please go back to the past, i want you who always bubble your cheek,take care of ur hair,and "nguap" like a bear..i like that..
THAT GIRL..she has just realize her feeling but she become so so so selfish,you know today when one of that boy friends "cengin" my friends and me THAT GIRL said "noo!dont cengin him"
helooo???!! is he yours ? dont be so selfish..but before you support his friends to make laugh with that boy..
strange girl,dont be like that..you are so annoying i hate that..auch!!!!!

just you

hello~
only you who can make me smile,laugh,cry,angry
i look like a stupid idiot person when i talked with you.. ah dont know..
so weird
so strange..
┐(￣ヘ￣）┌ dasar orang aneh..ga ngerti gw..ngmg sama lu kyk ngmg sama patung..
sekali ketmu maen..udah ilang kesadaran.. (*v.v)｡
(￣ー￣)(●´ω｀●)ゞ(o^-')b
maybe this is the last time for me to chat with him?
i miss him so damn much.. i hope i can tell him..