Dear Lennard,
here's a couple of things that i had to write down
not for you yet for myself in case i wonder in the future
it was a delightful morning after the 'break up' speach from you last night
i felt like the feather between my sheets this morning
just like how i used to feel before we started
still, i'm glad to know a tiny bit about you.
nice to know that there's soft-white comforter inside the concrete walls.
the moment was just temporary yet i've learned many things from you and changed many things in my life secretly because of you.
when the things i didnt want to be changed had to change, i freaked out
then you called it selfish,
yes but that is something i just cannot give up for you at this moment. I need it.
the more i know you the less i felt like myself cause of my weakness to powerful influences
the more we talked the less i wanted to speak cause im just not capable enough to argue with you at certain point
the more i feel you, the less i felt structural inside.
i need some time to redefine my blurred core,
as i said the first time we talked on the way back from Barney's sale.
reset, and here i go again
p.s
as we both agreed, I wont be asking you for anything from now on
(except maybe a cig break once in a while 'cause I do enjoy your company:)
Please, leave me the SANAA books you borrowed from me before studio ends
also $200 by 420
thank you for the time+space we shared.
li