I moved to a different place last month.
So, I could not use internet and update this blog for about 2 months.
Although most people think I start new life, it is true.
I have a trouble.
I feel stress now.
I like to meet new people.
Actually, I met new friends who be kind and interesting.
However, I like to be alone too.
I cannot endure eating excessive food especially at night.
I do not have confidence to take communications with others.
There were sad news I heard today.
A girl I seldom met though we are relative killed herself the day before yesterday.
I haven't related suicide before.
I feel very sad when I heard that.
I pray for her relief from the bottom of my heart.
However, why did she do so that.
I think she had terrible problems.
But.... I feel sad.
I heard her dad had cried hard.
Why did she do....
Death is a problem I must think and I want to think.
I am weak person.
I have many reasons I think so.
Especially, it cost me long time to come over difficult problems I experienced and failed.
I can't reflect but regret.
regret and regret ・・・・・
think same bad things again and again ・・・・・
If I don't repeat the same mistakes, it will be only by everyone's help.
I think I could spend my life with kind people.
Most people helped me when I had difficult problems.
I thank them from my heart.
However, I rely on them too much.
I should live by myself now.
I have big uneasiness.
I really want to have strong will and live improving.
Please teach me how to do.
Oh, I rely on someone again ・・・・・
I think I am really weak person.
