it seems big ice in my heart.
When I try to make that melt,I can't stand be myself.
Always feeling cold every time and everyday.
it may I wanna love my family,but I can't ,don't want.
everytime I should make myself as normaliy..?what is normal?
I'm simple person as same girl as liveing all over the world.
it may I have to thanks to Allah for my situation,condition, and mind.
I wanna love but I don't feel loved by someone.
Always one words from human from around me, makes me hurt,shock, and also little bit happy(maybe)
so that I still can live..
Something that I do and I've done has meaning or not?
I'm the person who has right to say opinion?
No,actually I wanna close my heart and just want to live alone as usually I felt since long time ago.
I just don't want to talk with lots person,I'm the person who is not goot at talking,explaining, and understanding.
I know that well,coz I couldn't talk lots when I was young girl.
that made me not only strong but also weak.
how foolish I am, becouse I'm always afraid someone's thinking or eyes which hate me,
I became the person who can't be real me eventhough in front of me.
Tomoko. she is the girl whom selfishness and foolish.
I can't help her, just can hurt her more and more.
I hate everyone and I don't belive anything,anyone.
shien