I had been using my time to someone for a long time.
But I reduce that time.
I began the practice of the bass guitar from a few days ago.
(I have also continued practice of ukulele & guitar).
This practice is also, I use the time for me.
At that time, someone is not coming out in my mind.
I'll increase more such a time of the day little by little...
From this April, I have to get up till 5:40 am in the morning.
Otherwise, because not too late of various things in the morning.
This Monday was a personal holiday.
But, as always, I woke up in the morning at 5:00 am,
I was attacked in various negative thoughts,
I cried a bit in the bed...
But, when looking at Twitter and Instagram,
I also touched the warm words that were left in the SNS on Sunday.
Their words were by illustrators and underground idols.
My sad tears had turned into tears of gratitude... 
Since I could not sleep much at night, I was asleep again about 2 hours after crying... 
The negative thought that is in my mind, I put out here...
Maybe, from around January of this year, my luck is in a weak state...
I've been feeling,
"no matter what I'm doing, they are not connected to the good direction..."
From this April, my situation has entered a new stage.
Also in human relationships in there, I feel a bit tired...
In the morning, I have to get up to up to 5:50 am.
After having supper at home, until take a bath,
I'm sleeping 10 to 30 minutes while sitting in a chair.
I'm tired every day...
I'm tired even in the countryside of the closed environment.
I want out from here...
"What kind of environment you are in now, you are able to shine there."
