V.

Time has passed again. Recently it's just flying.
It's my jobs, my school and then the rest of my time, I spent sleeping or going out with friends. Privacy these days is almost 0.
But I don't want to complain at all, since it's the time of my life!

A few days ago, Lucy came back to Japan.
Good for me to talk in german on a daily basis again.
Mom would just kill me, if she knew that I keep forgetting german vocalubary.

Yesterday was the first live, the 3 of us went to together.
I knew it would be great, since we kept saying it over and over.
But yesterday was just randomly awesome!

I met Lucy in Shinjuku at 12:30.
(Thanks phone for letting me oversleep one more time.)
We went to the hairset in Kabukichô I've been to 4 years ago. It's been Lucys first hairset ever!
Was glad she liked it. Unfortunately, it didn't last that long. (´・ω・`)

After that, we bought some stuff and went off to meet Naja in Ikebukuro.
We still had a bit time left over so we decided to get some food and Lucy still needed to get ready a bit.
Thanks McDonalds. You're a nice place to make girls even girlier! (*^o^*)

And so Blackhole, we met again..



This time for ギャロ!!

So far it really was one of the best lives we had!
And some certain vocals seemed to have fun aswell~
Already can't wait for ９月７日!

After the live, we did not really hesitate long and decided to stay the night outside. Shinjuku nights. One more of those nights.

We did some Purikura, talked to random people on the streets and had our fun out.




We ended up, spending the rest of the night in a Karaokebar.
First time for me to do so, but it's the cheapest place to sleep you can ever find.

Drinking some softdrinks, while singing old Greenday songs and passing out like homeless ppl afterwards, it really was awesome!




Thanks girls, I really really do love you!
Can't wait for the next live!!

IV.

I'm back in germany now since one week.
Still, I don't know what to think about it. Nothing has changed. (Apart from my grandfather's sickness.) Work is still the same. My friends are still the same. We're still doing the same stuff together and laugh about the same jokes. I'm happy to see all of them again.

Right now, I feel alright over here. I feel okay, to be able to see my parents/friends/old co-workers after my 9 month of absence.

Maybe it's okay because I know that I can go back to Japan.
That file is still not closed. There is still too much over there I want to experience, I want to learn. The summer fireworks are close.
Roxi and I want to dress up and wear Yukata. Lucy is coming soon aswell.
I want to improve.
My english and japanese skills.
I want to take the TOEIC and JLPT test(s).

Hell, there is still too much to do for me.

And people keep on asking me, if I want to spent my whole life in Japan.
Right now, this is a question, I cannot answer.
And I guess I don't WANT to answer it.
My journey is not over yet. And maybe Japan isn't my last stop, since I still want to go to brazil. Maybe next year. Hopefully.

I've always been one of the lucky ones.
I don't want to call myself lazy, since I put a bunch of effort to archieve my goals. But I always had it very easy.

Maybe I'm confused because I already fulfilled my biggest dream.
Oh, you live in Japan?
Maybe I just need a new dream. Something even bigger.

But I know, if I would have to stay here, things would just start all over again. I would just start to hate the things I hated before. Start to long again for my freedom.

Would long for being able to go to the supermarket in the middle of the night.
Would long for the city lights.
The scent of the streets in summer.
My new friends.

Tokyo, you're still a paradise.
After all those years.

What a great feeling to soon be back again.
I already miss you.

III.

I forgot about the existence of my ameba blog for a long time. (My last post is from August last year!)
And honestly, recently I have nothing that could really keep me here.
Even friends turn away from this website. We're all growing up, have no time anymore to spent hours on the internet.

My life is busy now.
I made it to where I wanted to be.
And the past 8 month, since I moved to Tokyo, were full of adventures.
Of course it's still not how I want it to be. But that's because I still have to settle a lot of things.

My school started in January. I'm studying japanese now. This way, even ameba gets easier for me. I can read and understand a lot more stuff and that's about bloody time.
3 weeks ago I could finally start my part-time job in a restaurant located in Omotesando.
The staff is really nice, like a small family. Everyone is very openminded and talkative... and super crazy.
I guess all (gay) foreigners know about this place. I've honestly never seen so many gays on one spot in Tokyo. Well, apart from 新宿二丁目 (〃∇〃)
Makes this place even more intersting and fun for me. My teachers and some ppl from my class already asked me for the adress but I guess I will keep them away from there, haha.

11 more days to go till I will visit my family.
My grandfather is really sick, about to die soon. So I want to see him for one last time and spent some time with everyone.
Final tests for this course lay ahead aswell.
I skipped class today, since I'm really lazy these days and really needed a day off.
Guess I have to do a study nightshift today.
But thats somehow worth it. It just feels great to do absolutely nothing for some hours, apart from listening to music, writing, reading and hanging around on the internet.

And now, I have to start and get ready to see one of my students soon.
Can't wait to make a bit money again.