i used to b a little nice girl.
what happen to me?
i m not a little girl anymore.
my big sister tells me
"wait for a while,
dont give it to guy so quickly"
whatever-
i know that
what i am doing is not
what i want to do
and i suffer in the dull warm water
i used to b a nice little girl,
but anymore
why do we try to get something hard to get??
i think i should see the reality,
but i just dont want to give up.
Me being all naked,
walking on a brrige as i walk on it.
If i can be a bit more .... agressive?
no that is not like that.
i just cannot help it
knowing there is almost no hope.
i still want to get it.
i could be a bit more...
life doesnt go in the way u wish for.
i bite my finger, and just watching closely
what is going on...
at the same time,
i am braking my rule.
conflict.
i dont know what to do
i dont even know what i want
but "it"
what is "it" anyway
what do i even want "it", ha?
time goes by...
yeah, i know.
yeah i should admit that it not ganna be here
so what is the point of me being so unstable?
me stupid.
i wanna do something
something, i want to do
so badly.