I just can't wait to go back to the US. 

 

That's all I can say.

 

I'm afraid of my plan would be canceled if I stay here any longer. What if Trump said like "We do not accept any foreigners form today" or what if the situation suddenly got worse?

 

I don't know since when I started feeling uncomfortable living with my parents.

Great food, clean house, nice couch, and the cutest puppy... Though I have these things at home, I still prefer living by myself. 

 

Or is this because where I am? Not whom I'm with?

 

I do not like living in Japan for sure, but what if I have my own apartment in Tokyo? Would I feel better?

 

I've been so grumpy and I hate that I have been. I know I haven't been really nice. I feel like I'm always mad and stressed about something.

 

20 days til I leave Japan...

 

I only have a one-way ticket.

 

I am not sure when I am coming home next time. 

 

Usually, I go home for summer but I don't think I will next summer. 

 

I don't see my future. That is another thing that makes me depressed and stressed. 

 

I want to get a job in the states and live there forever.

 

If I end up working and living in Japan, I'd be so depressed.

 

But I don't know what to do to get there.

 

Someone, give me a green card, please...