When it comes to the question of who I am or what I want to venture in, I find it difficult to give an exact answer. Unlike many other individuals I have met whom have their entire life plan already listed and are already halfway through that checklist,*inhales*
I just try to do well and hope for the best.
29th November 2017, 11pm SGT. I'm 20 months into National Service - 20 months of stale brain activity...
It's not exactly the longest period of time not is it the shortest. These 2 years were adequate time to think about the first posed question.
I have connected with 3 values that I would consider core to my personality or me as a person.
Efficiency , Convenience , Spontaneity.
There almost could never be 3 of a more incoherent trio of values, bringing a fugue of contradicting thoughts to anyone living by all 3 at once. You see, an efficient solution to a situation may not be a convenient or spontaneous one. A convenient solution to a situation may not be efficient or spontaneous. A spontaneous solution may not be efficient or convenient.
I seek the solution which optimises the 3 with priority given to none.
In a way those values are 'solution-seeking', they aren't your typical value of Integrity, Diligent, Camaraderie etc. The nature of these values gives me a look at how I operate - a solution seeker. What I realised was, that was how I see the world I live in, just a series of obstacles with clever solutions waiting to be solved.
I digress, Spontaneity is often a neglected value many missed. It was of course the 3rd value to join my list, to join my list after one fateful day where I thought I had found an efficient and convenient solution to a problem. But something wasn't right, i didn't feel satisfied with the answer i had found. I honestly couldn't remember what the situation was but I do remember one where 'tis just as applicable.
I had to prepare a map with talc, at that point in time, all equipment was before me and there was ample space and time to work with. I had Convenience and Efficiency(faster to do it now and get it done with or else I would have less admin time later on) on my side, and so I started work. At this point in time, there was a part of me that wanted to halt all progress. It was a simple task but I was irritated that I had to wait my turn to use the pair of scissors and tape available.
Revelation.
The double arm balance scale model I had till that point free a third arm. Thus I had installed a third decision-making component into my mind - Spontaneity.
Well, having more or less answered the 'who' part of the question, all that's left with is the 'what' part. That will be a story for another day. For now let's leave it at that.
P.S. I've always wanted one of those appointment stamps. Feels good to have a unique title to your name doesn't it.