i am uneasy
cuz i have to remeber many things in the short time
i know i can not remeber at all
and i know this time ...this time is not able to lose
if i lose..many things would be gone from me ...
DO MY BEST!!!
NEVER GIVE UP!
i dont want to be lazy...
i dont want to be lazy..
i am getting used to academic perssure...
so it can make me feeling lazy...
damn it ..
what do i wait for ..
what do i stand for...
i dont know how is nana's going now ...
really want to know how is she!!
the day without her,it's hard to fly
想她了，真的很想她。
为什么你是日本人呢...
为什么我是中国人啊...
罪孽...
太爱她了...
没关系的...
even she does not love me anymore..
i do love her
i do ...
i do ...
i do
i do .....
Chinese traditional thinking is so fearful
they do the way just traditional are.
no matter what will happen
my mum , aunt, grandmu , aunts...
they are chinese women,...
fearful...
nana's mum is totally different with them
i guess ....
the big different one is nana's mum fall in love with nana's dad for 10 years...
they were going out for long time
i know , my grandmum have never been going out with my grandfa
i know ,my mum have been going out with my dad least than 1 year only
so does my aunts
how could they love their partner
i dont ..
i will make sure what i love
but they always put the pressure to me ...
i always demanded to do somethings
they dont know how hurt to me when they stoped me to do something ..
never..
even hard to try.!
i will get off them someday..
someday!
i dont want to be lazy..
i am getting used to academic perssure...
so it can make me feeling lazy...
damn it ..
what do i wait for ..
what do i stand for...
i dont know how is nana's going now ...
really want to know how is she!!
the day without her,it's hard to fly
想她了，真的很想她。
为什么你是日本人呢...
为什么我是中国人啊...
罪孽...
太爱她了...
没关系的...
even she does not love me anymore..
i do love her
i do ...
i do ...
i do
i do .....
Chinese traditional thinking is so fearful
they do the way just traditional are.
no matter what will happen
my mum , aunt, grandmu , aunts...
they are chinese women,...
fearful...
nana's mum is totally different with them
i guess ....
the big different one is nana's mum fall in love with nana's dad for 10 years...
they were going out for long time
i know , my grandmum have never been going out with my grandfa
i know ,my mum have been going out with my dad least than 1 year only
so does my aunts
how could they love their partner
i dont ..
i will make sure what i love
but they always put the pressure to me ...
i always demanded to do somethings
they dont know how hurt to me when they stoped me to do something ..
never..
even hard to try.!
i will get off them someday..
someday!
大事（だいじ）なことは過去（かこ）を嘆（なげ）く今ではなく、今を変（か）えようとする未来（みらい）への意志（いし）だ！
俺がうれしいのは、おまえといることじゃない。おまえが幸せになってくれることだ。
私（わたし）がこの世（よ）に生（うま）れてきたのは、私（わたし）でなければできない仕事（しごと）が何（なに）か一つこの世（よ）にあるからなのだ
everyone wants to be happy everyday
so do i ..
ときには自分の気持抑（おさ）えて、相手のために引（ひ）けるのが、爱だと思うけど
nana have been like that to me ...
thank you my dear ..!!
何と言えばいいか分からない、ただ、急に思ってね。
人は何かの犠牲（ぎせい）なしには何も得ることはできないのだから。
i need to study hard ,after that i will fulfill everything slowly
as nana said ...you dont have a choose
人生（じんせい）は、必（かなら）ずしも思（おも）うようになるとは限（かぎ）らない。
now ... try to forget everything for few min
i just want to sleep well ...
sleep well...
sleep well...
.
miss you