I miss that moment

if there is one wish I could ask for now, its just to go back to the past

no, I dont want to change anything in the past. there's nothing I regret for. but I just want to enjoy my childhood era. okay not childhood, its me when I just graduated from junior high school [look at the photo below]



yes I was really tomboy.. the far right was me.... [now is still xD]



I do really miss than moment. especially my bestie there[jb, bella, rere]. we rarely meet now but I believe our friendship is more better than you can imagine. we do really have strong relationship between us

it doesnt mean I dont enjoy my life now. and it doesnt mean I didnt have any problem when I was in junior high school. But I just miss that time... I want to feel it one more time..
human isnt perfect.. much lacks
and one of the lacks is, easily forget something..










ANYWAYSS!!!
this is photo from 2 years ago..




my style was error punk [yeah, its mixed between the real punk and the unstylish style of mine xD]
and seriously. my make up was really really poor. the angle of taking photos of mine was superb bad also.. look at this picture below



2 YEARS AGO NOW




now, who dare to say that I am good in pictures and make up without hard working?
And its not because of the power of photoshop... I dont edit them all at all. thats real photos, no faking!!!
look at my ugly messy make up, bad hair, bad quality photo, totally no good thingy in that photo!!!!!




Im proudly saying that Ive been through a lot of things to be like this. Im far from perfect I know. but looking at the past, I know Im much better than before. and Im proud of it..
and I do believe 2 years again when I look at this entry, I will say that my future me is much better

"WE HAVE TO BE A BETTER PERSON BY EACH DAY, DONT WE??" :D




I'm full of working..
learning how to be good in photos
learning how to put make up well
learning how to style my hair
learning how to be a better girl!!!!!

so my future husband will be proud :3 -points kibum- LOL



and yeah, I am in /aib/ mood today.. nasty me? pardon me readers xD
in fact, firstly I didnt want to ever show these photos to anyone, showing off my ugliness? nah...
but I think, perhaps someone will need it [I hope lol]

I just want to tell you, who is reading my blog at the moment, that we all can be prettier. we just need a little will, hardwork, and motivation to do that. and I just want to give you the motivation

cmon girls!!! let's look at mirror and introspect what things do you have to change to make you be a better girl!


inside does matter, but outide does matter also...
and its our common, as girls, to be prettier for someone who we love. not have the right one at the moment? lets be a better girl and our future bf/husband will be proud of us : D






I hope its helpful



bye now folks

such a waste of time

I am totally mad...



why? cause seems everybody pisses me off

take an example for today..
I woke up so early today because our class had to do an important assignment, even though I was really sleepy and tired, I forced myself to go..

and even I went there lately [ditelat2in gtu deh], no one there. only molen and pais who just arrived there also
I was mad.. why? cause everyone had already been asked to not be late for today cause we wanted to finish it in one day. but everyone does!!

and Ive been waiting for 2 hours and really, there are only about 18 persons there!!! some of them is gone, some of them even have not wake up yet.. I am really pissed off (￣Д￣；；



is it human habit ? maybe its indonesia culture? or is it my school culture? perhaps it is only my class culture??
I dont know.. but one thing I know

I cant stand with people who are late with nonsensely reason..
perhaps I can tolerate some who is late only for 5-10 mins just because traffic or what. but hey, if you havent wake up yet, do you think I can accept the reason?


I dont think so..


I dont call myself as the one who never late, but at least you ought to be right?




so here I am.. waiting my mom to go to bank.. yeah I also have my own personal matter. instead of wasting my time at there waiting some people to wake up, I'd better going to bank and making my paypal..

seriously!!!


I dont care whether they will be mad at me or no, because I have arrived there when they asked me to do so. and I did!! but they didn't (￣ー￣；
so its not my fault at all.. I believe it . .







and oh, for some persons... which I anonymously say..

"hey you!! do not ever insult my make up and photo thingy if you even cant put it well on your face!!!"


my make up isnt the best but at least its more neat than yours who only can babbling at me


seriously, why people can look down on someone's skill when themselves cant do that. jealousy? aha I know it (´0ﾉ｀*) I had seen a lot of people be like that, but this time I'm really pissed. perhaps its because the time.. dunno.. hahaha



I just wanna laugh and say



"poor you, unskilled girls"



and no.. I dont say unskilled people is bad. but it is bad when you mock at someone who is obviously better than you. doesnt it just mock yourself also?


go to your powder room and face the mirror..
see your reflection and do instrospection for yourself

haha!! 8D

make up review?

GOOD!!!! I have written more than 1000words about a make up review which I used but its gone!!! T______________T

-sighs, sobs- ;___;

okay, I will still write it.. T_T

so because of my ego, my family headed to Grand Indonesia which I suppose is the biggest mall in Indonesia just for buying this eyeliner!! -points the picture-





waterproof eyeliner from MAC. which seriously so far this is the most expensive make up I've ever bought. its USD 20 which mostly my make up is only about 10-15 USD. I know, perhaps for some of you this is not expensive but I buy my make up by myself so, no option lol -shrugs-



I've tried it and seriously the result satisfied me enough like what anggi told me. its as thick as my liquid eyeliner which I never get in my last eyeliners. perhaps its a little expensive for some persons, but seriously, I speak like this just want to tell the fact. its better to have one which has superb quality instead have many things that only have low quality which only will damage your face and waste your money for shit..

I suggest you all to buy this one. its thick [as thick as liquid], last long, and easier to be used than liquid one of course. the price is paid by the result at least right? (￣▽+￣*)






and I ran out of my mascara so I decided to buy one also
there's no brand which can steal my heart for putting mascara for my lash except maybelline
and surely I love and suggest you all to use this one, INTENSE XXL, a waterproof mascara from maybelline-new york. it gives you great volume and length!!


the way to use it is really easy. firstly use the white one to intense your length. your lashes will be whiter yeah but its okay, add the black one to intense your volume and of course it will be dark, without white anymore XD
for meseriously, I never think that mascara which doesnt have two sides [like this black and white I mean] can longer your lashes more than mascara which has it. it gets us to work double adding the mascara yeah, not as flexible as the one side but hey.. beauty is all about work right..

trust me, your hard work will be paid off (´0ﾉ｀*)





okay, enough with the tutorial.. since some will get bored with it XD



I went to eat at a pasta restaurant which is originally from japan. shocked? I am..
sadly I forget its name. whatever xD;
I thought it was from western.. but whatever. since the price is kinda expensive I thought it would be tasty. but I am wrong!!!




I will never want to eat in that restaurant anymore..