Hello, hello... ちょっと久しぶりだね？ へへ そう、です。Just like my title, "more settled" now i am more settled. Why? Because i already finished all my business (except for some things that can only be done near the graduation date) for school. No more final task, no more meetup with the lecturers, no more go to campus all day. Now, i just need to wait for my graduation ceremony in October. It feels like, "hey, finally i'm free!". hehe.. but it's not like that too.. Somehow i felt lonely. i mean, the usual things i did before, now i can't do that anymore, right? I'm happy yet a bit sad. I am surely happy and felt satisfied, but also sad. hahaha.. But still, i am very thankful and grateful. Thank God finally i can finish this grade.
Me, who was always have a confront with my own self when finish my final paper, Me, who was always gave up after facing the obstacles Me, who actually can't speak in front of people, Me, who actually don't really know anything, Me, who even more felt stupid because of this never-ending situations, Me, who was thought that i was a burden for my family, Me, who was thought that i am a bad example for my little sister and brother right now finally changed. right now finally getting better. I felt that i am graduating from my past too.. ^^
All thanks to God. i can't do anything without Him.
When i was in my 2nd year in university, i always thought, what if i can't speak in front of my lecturers when i doing presentation for my final paper? That will be really bad. I was always afraid of everything, but now i'm afraid of nothing. God is with me, what should i'm afraid of? He promised me to always be with me, for ever. That's more than enough. sometimes we're the one who forgot His promise and our promise to keep believe in Him.
There are so many miracles that happen to me during my final paper process, and i can't believe how will i be if God wasn't be with me! So, with this post,i really want to express my gratitude towards Him.
People, if you feel down and don't know what to do, you have so many problems and there's no way out to be seen, just pray. Pray and believe that God will help you. His hands never be too short to hold you, His ears always hear your voices. We just need to ask Him to help us, then waiting and believe that He will give the best for us. (Proverbs 3:5)
Halo,my journal!! How you doing? hehe.. Why am i so happy? well, the title answer it all. YES!! Finally!! Finally i finished my study!! Yayyy!!! Oh, how i'm so happy! I always waiting and wanting this day to come.. And, finally i can proudly say that i'm already finish!! but.. still.. the graduation ceremony will be held on October this year, so i need to wait a bit longer.. but that's definitely OK,desu! ^^ Remember when i said before, that this blog just like my journey of University life, like my path to graduation? Well, actually that time even though i always waiting for this day, i sometimes thought that this day won't happen that fast.. haha.. My Uni life that full with ups and downs, tears and laugh finally will be ended soon. I am so happy about that, but sometimes kinda sad too.. But, i want to share this with everyone. My graduation, my uni life is a big and wonderful blessing from God. Why? Well, actually even though i looked so tough but i'm still firm inside. I always sad, and thought "why i can't graduate soon" before. I felt dumb, felt useless, and really disappointed with myself since i can't make my parents and family proud with me. Evenmore, i'm the oldest child in my family. I must give my little sister and little brother good example. But what happened to me? I can't graduate on time. I really sad back then. But then God answer my prayer. He made my lecturers made the appointment date to do my final test (well, how do you said "sidang skripsi" in English? haha) as soon as possible. Really, that was very fast. My lecture was in Papua in Monday to Thursday, then i met him at Friday, and he asked for final test in the next Monday. WOW. That was just WOW! I need to call the other lecturers too, and made appointment for Monday, and about the time we will held it, etc etc. That Friday-Sunday was sooooo hectic and so WOW. But still, everything went smoothly because of God! Praise Jesus! Everything was just so OK and i can did the test well, event though there's still have some revision. but everything was undercontrol. Then i just thought, "What will i do without You, God? You're too awesome!" Really, i can't do anything without my Lord God, Jesus. Even though until now i still don't know why should i took 5 years to finished my study in Uni, but i believe that God have His reason, and His plan is just the best one. Even none of us can think about it. Just believe guys, just believe, keep on praying, and keep on trying. I know i'm still no good in everything, still lacking for many things, but i believe, that God is in me and i'm in Him, so everything will be alright. Thanks for always be with me in my Uni year. that was really fun and full of memories. ^^ Okay, bye for now.
Keep on believing. God bless us. Good night, good sleep~
Well, but i really like Matoki. They are so cute. really.. haha..
Anyway, recently, here in Indonesia there're so many people who had dengue fever. well, that's because of the bad weather.. it supposed to be dry season but sometimes it still rained so hard. then.. yeah, it just happened. so please keep your health, guys. have enough rest, eat well, and drink much.
okay, i'll end my post now. stay healthy guys.. God bless us,
