たなばた。


クラス開始。


心配してたほど難しくない。


よかった。


writingの先生ブラつけてなくて乳首透けててまじきもい。


逆セクハラだし完全に。


jeongiと一緒にサマークォーターがんばる。


あやのに昼会えなくなる。


はやとに明日の朝教科書もらう。


明日からはもうちょっと早く家に帰ろう。


翔太が仕事つらそうであたしもつらい


仕事つらいせいであたしに当たられるのもつらい


そんないっつもめっちゃあたしにキレるとかじゃないけど、言葉の端々が尖ってて痛い。


なかなか時間合わないからメールしてる間とかラッキーって思いたいし幸せな時間にしたいし、


できるだけ電話して笑い合いたいと思うのに


毎日深刻であたしにはどうにもできない


でもあたしにしか愚痴とか八つ当たりとかできないんだろうから受け止めたいと思うけど


でもあたしガキだからできない


あたしはあたしでこっちの生活があるから


あたしが知ることができない仕事のことで病まれて


病んだ態度で接せられてもどうすればいいかわからない


だからあたしなりに翔太にいろいろなこと考えて


どんなんでも応援してるよってメールするけど答えなんか一様だし


挙句お前何もわかってないくせに的な雰囲気出されてしまった


じゃああたしにどうしてほしいんですか。


あたしはなにをしてあげられるんですか。


つらい とか うん とか そうだね とかだけメールきたとき


どう返せばいいんですか。


あたしはどんなふうに翔太のことを思えばいいんですか。


どんなふうに待たせればいいんですか。


誰か教えてよ。


july 8, 0:19

i just uploaded all of diaries i hadn't uploaded!


0705


we had a b-day party for alex!


first, we met up at eriko's place at noon!


but we had forgot we didn't have the bus cuz 0705 is 休日の振り替え!!!


omg!


so... we have to thank a lot to steve...lol


after we met up, we went to Hmart and bought ingredients for cheese cake and dumpling!!


then we went back to eriko's place, and made dumpling and cheese cake!


maybe we made about 350 dumplings...lol


cuz 12 people attended the party! lol


we were ready, but alex didn't come there soon...


finally, we were waiting for alex for 4 hours or something...lol


but alex was hella surprised!!!lol


and i think we made alex happy<3


dumpling was so good, and cheese cake was yum, too.


it was happy day<3


0706


we took the classes today.


jeongi and i have bad luck.lol


cuzi heard one of the teachers we have is really bad...


but...well, never mind...i believe we r gonna make it!!!lol


we'll start the classes tmr!


summer quarter is the hardest quarter in all of the quarters.


i must study hard!


july 6, 20:56

today is independence day!


and alex's b-day♪


congrats!!


alex, ayano, mano, jeongi n i went to gas works park to see fire worksssssss. x)


first, we went to china town in down town, seattle.


we got babble tea there★


n then watched fire works!


there r hella many people...!


but we can saw cute fire works.<3


it was so pretty!!!


i think american fire works is more colorful than japanese one!!


and we met some people we kno there. lol


it was freaking fun! :)


tmr we'll have a party for alex!!


it gotta be surprise party!!lol


i hope he can enjoy it♪





uhh...




i'm down in the damps...


i'm wondering how come everything's going not good?


i really hope it'll be good.


july 5 01:20

0701


i woke up late... lol


ayano was coming to my home on the day!!


and hyojin came, too. :)


we had dinner together. x)


and then we went to watch twilight3.


it was so difficult because the story is freaking complicated n i haven't seen 1 and 2.


but, well, i had a good time! lol


after ayano went back home and we were back home, i saw Toy Story2 on youtube...lol


it was hella good!!!xD


i like Toy Story series!!!


0702


eriko, ayano, mano, steve, alex, youngjae, kyujun n i had okonomiyaki party.<3 lol


before alex joined us, we went to get a present and card for alex cuz alex's b-day is 7/4!!


we got good bag. :3


we plan to have a party for alex on 7/5!


then we made and ate okonomiyaki and yakisoba and drank makkori and beer much. <3 lol


we thought mano and steve were like brother.<3


they were so cute!lol


we went back to our home around 2am. :D


bad boys n girls...♪lol


0703


when i saw Cars on youtube, ayano called me.


i hurry up and made up! lol


then ayano, alex, mano n i went korean karaoke~<3<3


they have some japanese songs, so we could sing♪


but they charged 25dollars for the room an hour!!!lol


it's sooo damn expensive, isn't it??:/


but we got rid of our stress<3<3


it was freaking fun. x)


recently i can't get in touch w/ my bf...


cuz he n i are pretty busy!


i feel so lonelyyyy cuz i love him.


haha


i think he is down in the dumps.


cuz of many causes...


it makes my feeling bad.


wanna c him.

i got up so late. lol


i felt tired so bad!!


i downloaded many songs in my ipod all day long.<3


i had dinner w/ nansy n laura(new roommate!lol).


i gave them souvenirs.<3


after that, jeongi called me like u wanna go watching Toy Story3??


so we went to watch it at 11:30pm or something like that. ;P lol


it was soooo daaaaaamn good!!!!


i cried.<3 lol


after i came back home, i watched Toy Story1 on youtube. :3


the day was so much fun.<3