shit!

i just finished reading numbers and OF COURSE my favourite character died....
why? why did he had to die? i mean... he was such a good guy and in the end it was all that bitches fault. if she hadnt done that than maybe he wouldnt have died at all. maybe his number would have changed. and in the end she lived on. well she had a baby just like him... omg that remind me of the ending scene. their son drew a picture of a tall guy and a short girl holding hands while standing at the beach and smiling like some idiots.... that what both of them aways wanted to do.... but they couldnt... cause terry died..... shit.... i am crying again! they would have been so happy together... and they really loved each other but 'cause life is an asshole he died and she lived on. fate didnt even bother to kill them both so they could end it all together. NOOO! of course one has to stay back and suffer.

fuck you life! you're the biggest bitch i ve ever seen

back home nr. 2

i just came back from the amusement park with my friend and our mothers and it was quite fun. well, me and my friend only drove four roller coasters but it was still amazing. i love roller coasters

on our way back we went into a book store and i took the chance, ran to the shelf in which i knew a book i wanted was lying and then ran back to my mother as fast as i can to tell her to buy it for me and in the end she did yay~
its german name is "Die Auserwählten im Labyrinth" and its about a guy who doesnt remember anything else but his name who wakes up in a strange place with 50 other boys who are in the same position as him and they somehow try to figur out what is going on and to survive. sounds interesting doesnt it?

so now i still have 20 minutes left until big brother will start. i think i am not gonna conitue reading numbers now 'cause i wont be able to stop if i do. gonna do it after big brother.

dont wanna go to school tomorrow. its sooo unnecesarry. the grades are already decided and all we do is sit around... eat.... and talk about unimportant stuff. but i still gotta go since i wont go there on wednesday 'cause i dont wanna be involved in that shitty sportfestival i am just happy that my mother allowed me not to go. otherwise it would have been such a pain in the ass

again just some stuff

sometimes i really really hate my mother.

she just send me a picture to print out and i did as i was told but then while printing she came in my room and said:"wtf... thats to big. cancel it and print it again a bit smaller." and i stopped the printing and told her to turn the paper so i could print it on the other side which was still white and she took hours to understand what i wanted her to do. and then when she finally did it and i was about to press the print button again ahse screamed at me: "why did you print it that big? i didnt tell you to."
and i was like:"you told me to print the picture so of course i will print it in its original size." she:"but that wont fit in my pocket." me:"then you should have told me that you wanted to put it in there. how am i supposed to know?" and then she kinda understood and said:"good than just continue with the large printout. it looks good." and i was like:"heh? but i already stopped it. you told me to cancel it and print it in a smaller size." and she:"well then do that." and she takes the paper out of the printer and tears it appart and i just look at her a bit irritated:"why did you do that? we could have still printed it on the other side." and she suddenly started screaing at me:"whats wrong with you? i just told you to print me a picture. why do you have to make it such a big deal? i will put in a new paper so just print it already." and i also got mad:"i was about to but then you tore the paper." her:"and here is a new one you idiot so print it now!" and i started laughing:"as if! if you talk to me like that i will do a shit for you.!" and then she started insulting me and left my room....
what the fuck is wrong with her?

ah who cares we will both forget it in the next few minutes anyway

so another thing i wanted to tell you guys ( the ones who read my posts.... so like nobody but myself ). i told you that i bought two books yesterday, right? the ones i wanted to read in my vacations but cause i was bored yesterday i already started reading one of them and it was so good that i couldnt stop and now i read more than half it it i am sure i will finish it in the next two days ( if not today ) which means i will have to buy a new one for my vacations. lucky me 'cause there is a second volume of the book i bought. btw its name is numbers and its about some girl who can see the date of every persons death when she looks in their eyes. and the second volume is about a boy who has the same ability. well, i really like the first book but somehow there is too much love in it. i hope the second one wont be like that... well, even if i will still like it well then i will continue reading it now since i dont have anything better to do

and i ve been listening to Train の Hopeless the last few days. I love that song