11. Paul gets serious
I'm going to write this in English so that the rest of the world knows how serious I am.
I'm not gonna lie, throughout the time period from my last post till now... I've been going through some ups and many downs. Life hasn't been so generous to me, no matter how giving and hard working I am.
Vancouver was one part of my journey that changed my life, and it was a very positive but also a negative experience. The feeling of being important and being surrounded by many people made me feel good about myself... being a manager of my cafe and having the life I thought I could sit back on for years to come. Of course the downside of that living is that once you fall, the things that await you on the bottom are merciless, cold and painful. I fell to the bottom... lost my wings and my way. I completely lost everything from my job, my apartment and my girl at the time. I had to cope with the pain by drinking and having fun with friends to fill the void of my misery. Once I reached the end of my rope, I took my ball and went back home to Hamilton.
In Hamilton... it was a slow but a sure start to recovery. I've quickly gained jobs and reconnected with a few things... yet I was disconnected from many things here. It was like I didn't know anybody any more or even knew what was going on. Eventually I knew I had to reinvent myself, taking nothing away from who I am... quickly I met knew people and even reconnected with with people I wasn't too familiar with, and to be honest, it turned out better than I expected because these would be the people I would call my friends. After establishing my presence, it wasn't as successful as I would be in Vancouver... but with a smaller group of people it would be a better step in the right way. Having many friends is a great thing... but it doesn't mean a thing if they don't really want anything to do with you. Over half a year... I thought about long term and wanted another shot of long term success and I didn't think I would have to leave everything behind to go back to Vancouver. This time... there was no reason to leave... I simply had everything I could as for in family, friends and stability. You could say I was wanting to boost my ego more and actually thinking of my future, and willing to make a sacrifice to do it. So I decided to put all on hold here to venture this idea.
Back to Vancouver... just after two weeks and shit falls apart easily only because I didn't account on the unprofessionalism of the company. They make everything sound good and easy, but yet... it's like working with 7 year old girls with the stubbornness of a mule. I left within two weeks since my arrival and once again I found myself spiralling downwards. WHAT THE FUCK. To be honest... I cried and I was very upset... wanted to go home, but inside me thought that I made a statement in come back to Vancouver, so I will stay to find out what that is. So I stayed. I eventually got back to Caffe Artigiano, for those don't know, it's one of the most prestigious coffee shops in Canada known for superior coffee, service and latte art. Anyways... it was thanks to this store, I found a temporary purpose to my stay. I didn't count on staying or having a fall back plan, yet... I think I got comfortable and back on my feet. While I was on my feet outside was a hard working and outgoing individual, yet inside was lost and knowing that this wasn't going to be a permanent fix. I know eventually that I will leave Artigiano behind to go back home to seek my resolve. Within six months of my working in Artigiano, my talents have shown and with great results I have become the top of the plateau, aside from the managers. I could say that no one else in recent history has been able to shine as bright as I could with hard work and determination, because I love what I do and I have a passion for it. In the end... while it is what I want to do, I wish that I could stay with Artigiano to do it. It's because of Artigiano that I was able to rediscover passion and get excited about coffee again.
I don't know where I'll be by the end of summer... but I hope that I can be happy where ever I am. It'll be sad to leave a lot of things behind, because I have to choose either Hamilton or Vancouver. While Vancouver is treating me well financially, but my happiness kinda lies in Hamilton.
TO BE CONTINUED.
I'm not gonna lie, throughout the time period from my last post till now... I've been going through some ups and many downs. Life hasn't been so generous to me, no matter how giving and hard working I am.
Vancouver was one part of my journey that changed my life, and it was a very positive but also a negative experience. The feeling of being important and being surrounded by many people made me feel good about myself... being a manager of my cafe and having the life I thought I could sit back on for years to come. Of course the downside of that living is that once you fall, the things that await you on the bottom are merciless, cold and painful. I fell to the bottom... lost my wings and my way. I completely lost everything from my job, my apartment and my girl at the time. I had to cope with the pain by drinking and having fun with friends to fill the void of my misery. Once I reached the end of my rope, I took my ball and went back home to Hamilton.
In Hamilton... it was a slow but a sure start to recovery. I've quickly gained jobs and reconnected with a few things... yet I was disconnected from many things here. It was like I didn't know anybody any more or even knew what was going on. Eventually I knew I had to reinvent myself, taking nothing away from who I am... quickly I met knew people and even reconnected with with people I wasn't too familiar with, and to be honest, it turned out better than I expected because these would be the people I would call my friends. After establishing my presence, it wasn't as successful as I would be in Vancouver... but with a smaller group of people it would be a better step in the right way. Having many friends is a great thing... but it doesn't mean a thing if they don't really want anything to do with you. Over half a year... I thought about long term and wanted another shot of long term success and I didn't think I would have to leave everything behind to go back to Vancouver. This time... there was no reason to leave... I simply had everything I could as for in family, friends and stability. You could say I was wanting to boost my ego more and actually thinking of my future, and willing to make a sacrifice to do it. So I decided to put all on hold here to venture this idea.
Back to Vancouver... just after two weeks and shit falls apart easily only because I didn't account on the unprofessionalism of the company. They make everything sound good and easy, but yet... it's like working with 7 year old girls with the stubbornness of a mule. I left within two weeks since my arrival and once again I found myself spiralling downwards. WHAT THE FUCK. To be honest... I cried and I was very upset... wanted to go home, but inside me thought that I made a statement in come back to Vancouver, so I will stay to find out what that is. So I stayed. I eventually got back to Caffe Artigiano, for those don't know, it's one of the most prestigious coffee shops in Canada known for superior coffee, service and latte art. Anyways... it was thanks to this store, I found a temporary purpose to my stay. I didn't count on staying or having a fall back plan, yet... I think I got comfortable and back on my feet. While I was on my feet outside was a hard working and outgoing individual, yet inside was lost and knowing that this wasn't going to be a permanent fix. I know eventually that I will leave Artigiano behind to go back home to seek my resolve. Within six months of my working in Artigiano, my talents have shown and with great results I have become the top of the plateau, aside from the managers. I could say that no one else in recent history has been able to shine as bright as I could with hard work and determination, because I love what I do and I have a passion for it. In the end... while it is what I want to do, I wish that I could stay with Artigiano to do it. It's because of Artigiano that I was able to rediscover passion and get excited about coffee again.
I don't know where I'll be by the end of summer... but I hope that I can be happy where ever I am. It'll be sad to leave a lot of things behind, because I have to choose either Hamilton or Vancouver. While Vancouver is treating me well financially, but my happiness kinda lies in Hamilton.
TO BE CONTINUED.
10. HISASHIBURI~ ><
WOW! I'm sorry for not positing for so long. To be honest, I forgot about this website, and it's been really busy in my life to be writing. As you all know, I have been doing video blogs as a way showing my life and sharing it to you, all the readers and viewers. In ways, it will be harder to understand my english... because everyone on ameblo is Japanese... but I will try my best to post in Japanese, as hard as that is for me. =)
Life has been rough for me... lots of ups and a lot more downs. However, I try my best to pick myself back up and try harder. "Try your best, and you will succeed."
I'm not sure how much videos I'll be posting, but I'll select a few that I might think is worth a watch.
Life has been rough for me... lots of ups and a lot more downs. However, I try my best to pick myself back up and try harder. "Try your best, and you will succeed."
I'm not sure how much videos I'll be posting, but I'll select a few that I might think is worth a watch.
09.ii - Late Nights
You don't want to know what we at night... LOL All I have to say is that it's fun!