I had the chance to hang out with a friend, who I haven't seen for months, today ヽ(ﾟ◇ﾟ )ﾉ
T'was fun. We went to the mall, and then downtown to see a movie. Sherlock Holmes! I really enjoyed it, actually. The action, the witty dialogue, the puzzles, the cinematography, Robert Downey Jr., Jude Law... Most excellent.
Here's a pic I took at Borders of a HOUSE calendar.
(say "hello" to my new cell wallpaper)
Awwyeah, baby
Haha, but throughout the entire day, I was really off. Like, mentally, wow. I had no sense of direction this afternoon, whatsoever. Very strange, I know.
But that's me, being totally on top of things on my days off (°∀°)b
How nice would it be to have a warm, family Christmas dinner?
With no bickering, no hostility, no negativity.
Just love.
Sometimes I like to daydream about it. For a few seconds, though. Silly, isn't it? :)
Seeing a lot of people I know, spending quality time with their families... (＾～＾)...
How many years has it been, since I avoided my family during the dreaded holiday season? Saa...
I mean, I am grateful for my family being here, alive and well. But... this is not home
for me. Have I ever thought that I had a place to call my "home"? Who
can show me the beauty of what it means to have a loving, caring
family? The warmth and happiness, the things I’ve been missing this
entire time. My mess of a family has only served as a constant reminder
of why I do not want to start one of my own. The thought of the possibilty that my family turning out the same way... I wouldn't dare take that chance.
All that I can do now is wait patiently, I suppose. Patiently and quietly... for that day.
Let's just hope I don't break anytime soon. It would make things a little harder, haha.
Jealousy is such a useless emotion.
If it were to somehow manifest itself in human form, I would tear it a new butt crack. Sloooowly.
It
doesn't happen often, but I do have my stupid, girl moments (and post
'em here, lol). This time, watching Michelle Phan's newest video did
the trick. She's gorgeous... A little too gorgeous, maybe.
Stunning, isn't she? I would kill to look like her. Like, you have no
idea. In this screenshot... her skin, the structure of her face,
cheekbones, eyebrows, lips, her eyes, the distance BETWEEN her eyes,
her long brown hair... All of her facial features compliment each other
perfectly. And the way she applies her makeup ON HERSELF to
enhance these features... wow. She really captures the "warmth" of this
look: the brown, rusty purple and gold... The girl's a natural. I can't
help but feel jealous.
I'm a huge geek when it
comes to beauty. Ironic, I know... seeing as how I'm not pretty to
begin with, lol. But growing up, my mother (who's a cosmetologist) and
her critical sense of beauty has always been around me. Again, ironic
because I was much of a tomboy who did karate after school and had all
guy friends whom I would joke around with all the time. I mean, I'm
still a tomboy at heart; it shows in my personality. Anyways, despite
my rough attitude, I knew a lot of things about beauty: the application
of makeup, hair-styling/dyeing/care-taking, skincare, etc. at a young
age. I knew how to recognize beauty when I see it, distinguish the real
from the fake, and what should done in order to improve one's look,
whether it be by means of makeup or simply by changing the angle of
that person's face in respect to the camera. Give me 20 seconds, and
I can tell you how you can improve your look with the features that you
have :) Leaning more towards the face than the body, because that's
what people tend to look at the most, lol.
I didn't start
wearing makeup until mid-freshmen year of high school, I think? Just
eyeliner though. And then I picked up a Cure magazine and got into
visual/oshare-kei and jrock-inspired makeup/hairstyles, and other
genres. Then I got into studying that and portrait photography. I was
into scene for a little while... I've developed my own look now,
but I'm still experimenting every now and then when I have the time.
Now,
I'm not all about makeup. Please. But aesthetics do have an influence
in my life. I mean, if you have brains... why not beauty too? That's
how I've come to think. And what's a little makeup to brighten up your
look and boost your self-image? :)
As for my looks and how I feel about my appearance... *sigh*
Since there's no more school and NOT taking a class during the winter
term this year, I have a little extra time on my hands. And you know
what that means. Anime.
I've been meaning to watch "Zoku
Natsume Yuujinchou" (the sequel to "Natsume Yuujinchou") after I had
finished the first season a few months ago. I think I mentioned it in a
blog before; it's like a mix of "xxxHOLiC" and "Honey&Clover" :)
It's a really nice series, and very relaxing to watch. And the series
really grew on me. The artwork, pace, character development, BGM, voice
acting, humor... It has everything I want in an anime series! I think
most people wouldn't appreciate it and would probably find it boring to
watch, but I love it. And the dialogue is simply enough for me to
understand, which is perfect because I'm trying to comprehend what's
going on without reading the subtitles.
So I'm watching that
now! OMG, I LOVE NYANKO-SENSEI. He's so silly! xD In his fat maneki
neko form, he sounds like an annoying, old geezer... But when he change
into his cool, true form... WOW, HE SOUNDS REALLY SEXY, LOL. Listening
to Inoue Kazuhiko-san's voice... <3 <3 <3 *melts*
But no matter which form he's in, Nyanko-sensei will be Nyanko-sensei xDD
EDIT:: Hahahaha, the second episode of Zoku Natsume Yuujinchou is so
funny! A creepy statue spirit comes flying out and is all "RAWR,
I'MMA POSSESS YOU, BIATCH", but then he misses and is trapped in the
cute snow bunny Natsume made and is all "SHIT, I ENTERED THE WRONG
VESSEL." Lol, fail. So then Natsume just... stares at the little snow
bunny that has an evil aura emitting from it. And Nyanko-sensei wants
to eat it like a snow cone, LOL. I've never laughed so hard while
watching an anime xDDDD
EDIT, TAKE 2:: KYAAAA, Ishida Akira-san does the voice of Natori!!!! *nosebleed* His voice is so smooth, wow... *drools*
And it's pretty spiffy.
