the horizontal leap to reality

when was the last time you looked into the mirror to find only vacant space?

it was not until this morning that i realized that there was actually nothing on the other side. i reached across the silky glass surface to find not only vacant space, but complete emptiness void of time.

Attempting to pull myself together, I found not a single figment of me projecting across to the other side.

It simply seemed as though my existence only resided on this side of the world - yes my self-created reality which I call home.

At home I am comfortable and in my own element. No need to dialogue nor share nor be shared. A world where my own thoughts penetrate space necessary and nowhere more.

Is there need to find my own reflection?

Is it he whom I need to identify? Or is it I who needs to be identified by him?

I've grown incredibly comfortable here. Is there need to uproot him and put him into shape?

Besides, what am I going to tell my reflection when I see him? Where have you been?

No. I am equally responsible for his welfare - well maybe. Perhaps he can not be found?

Where could he be? I wonder if he has a mobile. if he's anything like me, it shouldn't too far at hand - only one dial away. Now if I only knew his number...

how can i reach him? geez, it's been such a long time since I saw him, I wonder if we'll each reconginze.

whatever the case, we usually have made a routine of confirming each other every weekday morning at 8:00 am for 2 seconds before going our separate ways

aside that, it's fairly rare to take notice and commence dialogue. perhaps i will try and slip him a note to wait an extra 5 minutes so that we can touch base after our wives leave the house. For then, we can finally be alone for just 5 minutes.

i can leap on to the other side and confirm my existence. it is he who shadows my steps in time.

Or is it he who gives us light?

whatever the case, tomorrow at 8:00, we shall make our horizontal leap into reality.

there we shall confirm our point in our time.

Limitations of the Human Mind

There's a quote that I really like: "Knowledge is absolute, but Creativity circles the world."

To paraphrase, after a certain point, there are limits and boundaries which contain knowledge, but it is actually creativity which sets knowledge free (and create more knowledge).

Interestingly, both knowledge and creativity are components which both fuel and is produced by the human mind. Both are mutually exclusive to its respective existence.

However, there are times where the dialogue between the pair ceases whereby neither knowledge nor creativity is produced.

I am fortunately or unfortunately witnessing this event in a certain individual where her own past knowledge (or experience) is attempting to dictate passage of what path she is to walk without considering her other creative potentials.

Of course, one should not actually be bounded either way for as long as one has the will to excel by leveraging knowledge and/or creativity.

I beg to wonder the "and/or" in that I argue there is no "or." The equation must be an "and" so as to complete the dialogue. One can not succeed with only creativity nor only with knowledge.

There are surely limitations when one "should be" when one actually "are not" or "can not."

It is this very gap in perception between what one "is" versus what one perceives to be which differentiates one who excels versus one who fails to recognize and act accordingly.

Now one must ask whether failure is driven by one's inability to recognize or by denial.

Neither is better over another in that neither produce desired outcomes; however, the potenital for one to succeed is higher for the one in denial in that one need not agree, but simply accept.

What if one is simply unable? Perhaps only time will tell.

A journey to discover...

So I am back writing my journals again... or so I shall try.

Today, I engaged in a conversation with a friend who left me in wonders over the idea of traveling..

Yes, I enjoy travelling, and the word "Travel" is actually rather vague in that the word conjures different thoughts and images in both the Japanese equivalents.

Paul Bowles, the author of "Sheltering Sky" once noted travelling to be a trip where one is uncertain in where one's destination lies whilst a "tour" is for one who knows where that final destination lies - home (or where one started from).

Whatever the case, my friend struck me by stating that travelling is better interpreted as a journey, however often done alone whilst engaging in dialogue with many other lonely souls.

Whilst a tour is done in a group of two or more where the opportunities to dialogue with "chance" is quite restriced for the very intent is to converse within one's own group.

Perhaps after my recent tours, I have once again begun to long for a journey to discover what lies beyond the curtains of the unknown. Perhaps it is chance... or perhaps it be something diabolical.

I don't know. Whatever the case, today I begin my journey to explore the unknown.

As I embark to write and see beyond the dark shadows of doubt to yield sunrise to ray light of curiousity, I step foot to ink my first step.