Heeeeeey,
Tomorrow…I was supposed to go on a trip to Tohoku district wiz my ex-boyfriend. We had booked a hotel, but he canceled it. I had been looking forward to it but now the thing just making me sad. I really don’t wanna spend tomorrow by myselfL
I still miss him so much, I don’t know how to forget him. I had been thinking that it would be me who would become tired of the relationship, not him. But it was wrong. He said that it wasn’t me but himself who should be blamed. Every time I think about the fact that we broke up, I always regret what I did to him and what I said to him. ‘I should have…’ I cannot stop thinking in that way. What if I didn’t do it? what if I didn’t leave my phone at his house at that night?….are we still together? I know that I should go to the next step, but I really cannot. I thought I was ready to give up….but....
Going abroad would be a great chance to move on to the next level. Next weekend, I will see the person in charge. I'm kinda excied. I have been looking for an opportunity to go abroad over the long term, and finally I did it! but my parents didn’t seem happy. I know that they are not willing to leave me. yeah…but how can I get over it? I feel like there is no one who support me. without my family, without Kenichi-kun, without Akiyo-chan…how can I stand out???? I am having a difficult time…