This is for practicing my english.
Therefore I don't need to tell someone about my blog.
I just write down what I think about and /or feel about now.
I retuened to JPN from CAD last week.
I was really excited to come back,and imagined a lot what I would do.
However I've been feeling lonly and depressed since last week I arrived at my home.
The most reasonable reason is I don't know how I can intract with others. My problem is kind of my friendship, familyship and my relationship with my bf.
I realized that I tried to ignore my sadness feeling, emotion .
But actually my emotion that I ignored is still in my heart and it will never fade out as long as I care about myself.
I don't know how I deal with my struggling, tho.
My host mom and friends who I can trust are just a few,still it is enough for me isn't it?.
also I may be enough as well. I'm enough beatiful,enough intelligent,and everything is enough for me.
If the motivation comes from fear or joy, the resault will be changed.
"I will there for you.Take care of yourself." This word that my host mom sent me stays in mind.