wow---.....


I read most of my journal and felt like strange.

Fitstly, its been an full year since I came back from victoria last Aug.

I kept down so many feelings about going abroad, meeting new people and so on,,,,,,,,


and then I reminded a little of that feeling how I thouht of living in another country. This feeling, make me shocked coz I almost ....mostly forgot about it.


Time gives peole new life, new things and make them lose their much of memories...........uhhhh gosh


I dont know how should I do.

I need to do more n more for my language, my studying, my beatiness, etc....but I m doing nothing.



Also I read one of my friends who just went to L.A. for studying.

Shes in a big big adventure and trying to overcome it.

I should do some trying in an shape,,,,,,,,,,,huhhhhhhhh shoot




feel too bad that I forgot about my past, about what I was doing, about what I was wondering, what I wanted to do......


did I just feel great about my new darling and just didnt face to the reality?

so that I forgot many things?


i dunno,,,,,,,,,neither dont need to consider so deeply..

uhh

I remember when I was in the pool at the flat's basement


I remeber when I went to the bookstore and meet some friends there...



I remember many things!


dont wanna lose those memories,,,,,,,,,

that moment never comes again, of course




and and I notice that


I do not get that kinda feeling in Japan


'that kinda feeling'


it is



the feeling I think like this


I don wanna lose this moment's memory




I do not get this feeling in these days in here.



gosh



awesome