Stop worying

I took a bath from the morning. Today isn't a holiday or a weekend. But it is a little bit cold and my feeling was depressed so I took a bath to refresh myself.

The signal was a small chat with my husband in this morning.

Yesterday I fixed the door in the entrance which always had a small gap. I told him about it to get his praise.

But his reply was "Oh, I didn't realise that". Hnnnnnn, so far so good and following that, "I won't be able to realize it without using it a few times."

Same as usual!!.

Oh, really? If he used it a few times, could he realize it?

No way. Never!!

I just wanted only a small thanks and praise. But he never notices that.

How should I educate him?

I think that he doesn't know how to praise other person rather than dislikes to praise.

I always feel some frustration about it. A few small words of praise help smooth.....

In the bathtub I considered many many things more than one hour and I was going to write down the contents on this blog. But now, I couldn't remember them easily.

The conclusion is that human always has some complains even on any stages of life.

For example, I have no children now. So I have some anxieties about our old age.

But if I had children, the current anxieties might disappear but new one would appear, or the other anxieties may increase.

Now we have the debt because we bought our house last year as well as my husband changed his work to move here. We need more money but if we had more money, we would want much more money.

When we didn't have our own house, I wanted it for our old age. After clearing the anxiety, the other anxieties, sometimes double or triple anxieties, come out.

PHEWWWW

When I look back at my life, I always had had something to worry. Since the current social condition is difficult to predict because of the world situation or the changing speed of the things, people can't help having fears of their future.

It is no use worrying about the future.

Stop worrying. Yes!! Stop worrying.

Rooster and Piano

It is Monday today. The weather is fine and comparatively warm.
My rooster is crowing again and again because neighbor's rooster keeps crowing.
They crows in turn. It's funny.　They compete each other. Oh, it stopped.

I have a piano in my home, which is a second-used one.
For six years from grade 1 to grade 6 in elementary school, I had learned piano.
Since I wasn't a good student, my progress was very slow and I forgot it easily.
Even now I'm not good at playing the piano. I can't memorize whole music scores.
I memorize just the part I like.

Recently my favorite TV drama is on air every Monday. It is a music drama of a heroin who plays piano with her boy friend.
When I watch it, I feel like playing piano. It's mysterious, isn't it? She looks happy with playing piano.
It makes me fun and leads me to the piano.

English diary

Today, suddenly I wanted to write my diary in English.

I wanted to do something to improve my English skill.

I knew that writing a diary in English was very useful to skill up English but I'm a procrastinator.

At last I decided to do it. I don't know until when I can keep this motivation.

I hope it lasts ever.

It is fine but cold today. Yesterday it snowed. Compared with that, it is good.

From a few days ago I have read a book I found the book shelf of English in the book store. The title is "YOU WERE BORN FOR A REASON."It is very attractive, isn't it?

At least for me.

I wish I could find the reason to live.

Now I'm happy rather than unhappy but I think why I am here or why I live now.

If someone says "You are right as you are" and I can agree to it, my anxious would be solved.
But nobody says so and I 'm not sure my life style is right or not.

I wish I could find the purpose of my life.

It has been already the end of this year, December.

So, what? Yes, so what.

Last night I had a farewell party for my acquaintance who moves to the place far from here suddenly. With her I enjoyed some activity regarding English just for 4 months. Very short time.

She is very beautiful and friendly person. I like her as well as others like.

I feel she is a good person.

One hand I wanted to keep in touch with her, on the other hand I felt tiresome to do it.

My energy easily lack. Keeping in touch needs energy.