movie park

jyang jyang~ ヾ(＠^▽^＠)ﾉ
the day before yesterday i've been to the movie park with aiko & lordi (& some more friends, but those two are the most important ones, haha!) ... i wanted to go there for sooo long & now we finally made it!! haven't been there for about 10 years! ヽ( )｀ε´( )ノ



too bad none of us brought his / her camera ... ahh, i totally forgot about it! （/TДT)/

you know, i haven't been on a roller coaster for more than 10 year, i just hate - no, i hated! - roller coasters! bnut my friends really wanted to go on the mp express which is a suspended looping coaster!! i was like 'are you kidding me !? i haven't been on a coaster for so long & the first thing to try out is something with a looping ??!' ahh, i was so scared, haha! ... aiko was kinda nervours too, nee~ ! (・ω・)/
but in the end we thought it was sooo fun that we wanted to go again, haha (*゜▽゜ノノ゛☆ ahh, but the line was too long, too many people waiting to go there ... too bad ...

later on the others were riding the bandit but aiko & i ended waiting outside becuz we were too scared ... i mean, it's a wooden roller coaster!! haha (｀∀´) buuut, buuut ... at the end of the day we were riding the bandit as well, it was dark as hell outside, we couldn't see anything ... i just know; it was damn fast! ahahaha~ (*^▽^*)

we also did some water ride things & some stuff for children. ahh, & the horror houses (well, something like that) were kinda funny, i wasn't too scared of that ... i was more scared of the disguised people with their chainsaws! this was killing me, seriously! (*￣Oﾉ￣*)

the day was really fun & i hope we can do something like that again soon! even though i didn't get my cuddly pet, a huuuuuge shark!! ヽ(ﾟ◇ﾟ )ﾉ next time i'll get it, i really want it, haha!!

サ。

black & white

i love black & white hair!! :3
... the pic looks kinda weird tho (ノ◇≦。)



thank you rin, for cutting my hair !! ('-^*)/

サ。

ayabie

i really tried to hold my tears back, really. i didn't want to cry.
it's been a few days since ayabie announced their disbanding & i still don't really know how to put my feelings into words. ayabie's been one of my favorite bands from the very beginning. i remember how happy i felt when kenzo joined the band, i remember how hardly i cried when ryouhei left the band. but still, i was happy about yumehito joining the band. their music always made me happy, i loved watching their dvds - at the moment i don't feel like listening to them anymore, it just hurts to much.
i really hate the fact that so many bands i liked disbanded, but i would have never thought ayabie would be one of them. i still can't believe it, i just don't want this to be true!! i just don't know what to say ...

ayabie has basically become just one person: me

even now, i find myself wondering if the 5 of us really can't stand on the stage together once again

what shocked me most is not that they are disbanding. it's the fact that intetsu, takepi, yumechun & kenzo are leaving ayabie. they are leaving aoi behind. i don't know why they decided to do this, but this is so cruel! in my opinion it's cruel to leave aoi behind & form a new band just like that, without him. they can't be serious about this!

continuing ayabie alone, or adding in new people and continuing - both of these options are completely unthinkable

my whole life is ayabie

after reading aoi's blog i really couldn't stop crying. it's so hard to read how he is suffering, while the others just had a few words to say - it's not like i think they're aren't suffering, sure they are, this must've been a though decision. but all of them said more or less the same things, while aoi wrote so damn much about how he feels & his words just hurt so much. he has such nice words to every single one of them, even to ryohei who hasn't been in ayabie a while. but then again some of the things aoi wrote were just hard to read, really hard.

even if it's just me, i want to have one last live. i want to create an opportunity for me to apologise to all of you
to have betrayed your feelings, all your warm feelings - i'm very sorry that it's come to this

i cried so badly when i've read this. as if he needed to apologise to anyone! as if any of ayabie's fans would think that he betrayed anyone! i would give everything to see ayabie one last time, even if it was only aoi!! but i guess there's no possibilty for me, huh, so i'm really thankful that i was able to see them live once. i will never forget this concert, i will carry this memory in my heart. for ever.

no matter what i decide, i know i want to meet with all of you
even if no one comes to meet me, that's my choice

'even if no one comes to meet me' ... these were the hardest words in his entry. i hope he knows that all of ayabie's fans are right behind him & will always be.

i don't know what else i could say. i will always support aoi & i hope i'll be able to support the other 4, too, but i still don't really know what to think about them. this announcement came so sudden & for me it just sounds like they kinda betrayed aoi, their friend. but who am i to judge them, huh ...

彩冷える forever in my heart

サ。