memo

this blog has became a place for my worries....

I don't know what to say somehow I don't feel anything today, kinda of emotionless

just some thoughts that I wish to forget keep popping in my head

although it's frustrating but as for today I don't feel anything

nor sad or happy

sometimes I need someone to talk to but I know that not anyone will be able to relate and understand what I'm trying to say, so I end up writing here

作り笑い

なんとか今日いろいろ頑張って作りました。

大丈夫とかうれしいとか
そんなようなうそを言ってしまった

心が癒されるまで頑張らなきゃ～
明日もがんばります

sad feeling

today I cheated my feelings and said something untrue, that's not so me

but somehow I couldn't......

it's not like they care about what I think anyway

maybe what I said is for the better.

maybe it's time to forget and be more realistic