2012! 今年はどんな年にしようかな。

あけまして。

ついに２０１２に突入だぁー。


今年は４月から新社会人だし、
旅行について、もっともっと詳しくなる。
いろんな人との出会いとか大事にする。
バックパッカーの人達と知り合いになる。

まず大学をきちんと卒業する。
これが第一条件。

最近、親のありがたさを益々感じるようになった。
ほんとに感謝感謝です。
ヨーロッパ旅行、いつかプレゼントしよう。

ドイツに行きたい。３月の半ばになりそうだけど。
カナダの留学中に友達になったドイツ人のキャロ。
泊めてくれるって。ありがたやー。
でもまだ軍資金が足りないという実態。
１ヶ月、ヨーロッパを廻りたいなら３５万ぐらい必要とのこと。
そんなに用意出来てません。。行くなってことなのかしら。。


旅好きの人ともっと知りあおう。
オフ会とか参加しちゃおうかな。

まずまず、部屋の模様替えも終わったことだし、
ピアノの鍵盤が触れやすくなった分、
曲も沢山書けそうだ。
もっともっと創作しないと。クリエイティブになる！

結局

７月１日、金曜日

結局、私は今の内定先が一番向いてるんじゃないかって思ってきた。

私の就職活動を始める前に決めた軸は、“将来海外に行くこと”で、

今の内定先は海外支店を多く出すことが目標だからチャンスが増えるわけ。



海外に行きたいと思う若者が少なくなってきているそう。

どうして？と思うけど、私はとりあえず海外に住みたい。永住したいくらい。


今、忘れないようにもう一度書こう。

私の目標は、海外で働くこと。外人を相手に仕事をすること。


忘れるなよ。

一年後、二年後、五年後、辛い時が必ず来る。

原点に返って、もう一度やるんだ。一度で諦めちゃいけない。


世界中に友達を作って、笑って話せて、
細かく思い出せるくらい濃い思い出を沢山作る。

おやすみなさい。
待ってて、世界。

久々の日記。

６月２９日（水）

久々の日記。
誰も別に読まなくて大丈夫な日記。

これからは日本語で書こうかな。


就職活動を去年の３年生から始めて、
約一年あまり。インターンから数えて。
やっと内定が一つ出た。

やっと一つって所が今年の就職活動の厳しさを表している。

正直、帰国子女だし、
英語も話せるから商社とかいいな、なんて思ってた。
でも、全く私の考えは甘くて、ほとんど筆記で落選。
日本で職を得るってとっても難しいと思った。
海外でのんびり低賃金でもいいから働こうとも思ったけど、
やっぱりチキンな私は日本の方が安心してしまうのかもしれない。
でも海外でいる自分の方が本当の私らしかったりする。
とっても、あまのじゃくなんだな。



『バイトも学校も資格の勉強も、全部やりきる。』

これが残された学生生活での私の目標だな。
正直、卒業出来ないと親を大変困らす結果になる。


内定先の企業で本当に自分は満足しているのか、
少し不安に思ってる。ブラック企業と言われているし。
そんな噂、自分の目で見ないとダメだよね。
明日の内定者懇談会で、判断してこないと。

日本の企業で大丈夫かな。
縦社会かな。上下関係とか激しいのかな。

不安だらけ。期待はそんなに感じてないかも。

周りが自分よりもいい企業に入ったとしても、
私が“ここで合ってるんだ。正しい選択をした”って
言えるような自分になりたい。
おやすみなさい。

im lost

4/4

I can't find the way I want to go on.
Sometimes I feel so sad at night but in the next morning I don't any more.


It is something that night time does so that I go down so easily. My grandma used to say that it is not the right time to think about something at night.



Meanwhile, it could be said that thinking about things at night makes me write songs. People who do not face to hard times, they might not be able to develop their new creativities or incredible abilities. I really like to think about something. I like to think about something that seems there is no answer for that, I like to make something new from thinking and spending time for that.

It could be a song.
It could be a poem.
It could be just a line.
It could be a word.
It could be a tear.


It's almost 3 am.
I should go to bed.

Life is given just once.
Some people take chances.
Some people do not take chances.
Some people do not even notice them.

I want to be someone who takes chances and dedicates to it to be completed fully.
Let me do that, or I should read some books like 'Unlimited power' or something.
Good night, and sweat dreams.

oops i did i for the first time

就職活動って。

I was almost done writing an ES for Tansensha but I make a mistake.

I was gonna stamp my name on the spot and I put a book under the form. I dumped the stamp into the ink again and again, so I was ready at the time.

But the stamp itself was not ready yet. The sponge in the ink was sticked to the stamp!!!!!

OMG.


The sponge dropped on the form and there is a big red stain....I hate that.


I wont make the same thing happen again! NEVER!


Well, Im gonna go to the seven-11 tomorrow morning and see what I can do there.

GOOD NIGHT!
STEP BY STEP, eh?

The Power Of Smile by Kokia

1.14 Fri,

TGIF!
I spent most of the time at the library to study and prepare for the exams.
The center exam, which must be a big day for all of high school students, is settled tomorrow.
Good luck with that! I really have to worry about myself though.


Sometimes, I'm afraid about what other people might feel with my tweets because it's hard to control all the emotions that I feel. The way I talk to each person is different. The tension is not the same. People can see what you say to others on the screen, right? I'm not really good at it.

I usually spend some time before I tweet, but it goes to be deleted most of the time. hehe


Should I work when a help line has been announced? Even the job hunting is getting busier??

I'm alive/ Celine Dion

1.8 Sat,


I went to a seminar of ANA today which was just great! I really wanna get into there.

There were some ladies who have been working for ANA and I could hear about the real life.
I have so much to tell you about it but I'm so sleepy right now. I'm very sorry, I'll have to write 4 exams in a week so don't have much time to spent time here. I really really have to study as much as I can. Aww, tests,,,awww!

My Hands by David Archuleta

1/3 Mon,

Well, it's been 3 days already?! It feels so fast! Time flies like a wind.


I used today to read newspapers that I have not been able to read them through and Im finding it fun because it's filling me with the knowledges of events what is going on in the world.

There is a rush going on that I have to fill a lot of web entry forms. I've gotta change the lines a little bit for each one which is not that easy. It should but I tend to think about each company too much.


At the last, I cannot lose my passion for art, music and beauty. Maybe Im not the type of a girl who works for a trading company. I don't know yet. See ya!

Happy New Year!!!

1/2 Sunday,

WOW! 2011 has started! How was your new year's day?? :)
Mine was at home, but before that, I worked at the starbucks for 8 hours or something.

I worked on the eve and the New Year's day. I have been thinking of taking a months off for the job hunting, so Im off right now. Im not gonna work there until I get an official employment.


2010 was kinda easy going year for me. I didn't get anything special but happened to know that I could wait until something happens. It means that I am capable to waiting for something. It is important to make something happen by myself but life needs some time to think about life doing anything big.

There must be a company that is needing me.
I have to tell that to myself to keep my mind fine.


By the way, one of my colleagues tweeted that he wants trust from people. It made me think.
If you are demanding trust from people so bad, then would you tell it?? Maybe, I wouldn't.

とにかく、信頼は簡単には得ることはできない。
だけど、そんなに人生ずっと気を使っていなければいけないのだろうか。

自分の好きな通り、やりたい様に、やっていれば似た人たちが勝手に集まるんじゃないだろうか。

Anyways, I will do my best in life. To my life better, I know that I will have to deal with my family thoughts. Yeah, there are many many stuff that I have to make them clear.

JAY'D is so good. The groove makes me move~! The melodic piano sound is just beautiful.





One of my friends once asked me what I want to do in the future. I couldn't answer that.
It is not that obvious what I want to do, and what I do not want to do as a job.
I love music, right? So, I have been studying about companies that could make me happy with music. However, managing a singer or talent is not what I wanna do.

I've got to find what I want to do seriously.

Im off from part-time job, so there is an enough time to study for the exams. OMG, I hate them. I don't know how to study for exams. That's so stressful for universal students. If I were in a foreign country being a universal students, I would not be such a lady one. I would be so aggressive and eager for the tests. I would love tests because it would be so much more challenging that a japanese tries an hard test in a foreign country, right?

日本だからって言い訳に過ぎないけど、日本だと甘えてしまうよ。
テストだって勉強だってもっともっと出来るはず。

以前、塾の先生が、“本当にできる人っていうのは場所を選ばない”って言ってた。
確かに、そうだろうけど。私はできる人だという自覚が少ないから、場所を選ぶ。
そして場所が変われば自分が変わると自信を持って言えるんだな。
じゃあ行けばと思うかもしれないけれど、家庭の事情があるってもんで。

I love reading my old diaries... they are so young and so stupid! lol
Even for me, my teen was crazy like a kid not knowing what is right and wrong.
However, I should stop looking at my oldies back anymore because it doesn't really create new
me. Always becoming myself back, not a new me created by the action so far.

K.
今年は少し日本語も交えて日記を書いていきます。
音楽関係でいろんな話を書けたら嬉しいし、就職活動についても感じたことを書いていくつもりです。

２０１１もよろしくお願いします！　
JuNko

You Learn by Alanis Morissette

12/30 Thursday,

Hi, everyone who is reading this.
I've just finished writing the SPI2 which was so much harder than I thought.

I've got to prepare for that! OMG, that one I just did was awful!!! I'm shocked to know how not being smart I am. I don't wanna call me a fool but I was realized that I'm not the smartest girl.



I have a cold. I have to get it better before I go to the starbucks. Tomorrow will be sooo busy there because people come to Asakusa on the new years eve for praying at the Senso temple.

My throat is not ready to call those kinda names of beverages. Our store is busy and noisy most
of the time, so I sometimes have to yell them to the person in that bar station.


Wel,, 2010 was not my best year, but it was needed for myself to think about my future a little bit deeper and longer.

I don't wanna be a person who thinks about business all the time.
I want to be a person who is a half of child and a half of adult.
I want my future friends to be natural when they are with me, no acting such as an adult.
I want myself to be myself at age 17 but with a wise and cool mind.
because I used to love me so much. I was so wild, aggressive and ambitious always.
I need to be get myself back again with a better outlook.


Okay, good night.
Peace.