fear..

hello 皆さん！

well i don´t feel good at the moment..

it´s not because of my stomach pain,but rather i´m scared because of my future..

nothing happens.

i didn´t even get my certificate from the kindergarten and therefore i can´t do anything.

also i dream very bad the last time,tonight also...

only nightmares...

i´m really scared..

also my mother´s health is not good...i´m worrying.

there is so much to do,but i can´t do anything,because i feel kinda lost.

i wish,there would be a good sign or just someone,who shows me i´m not alone.

only one little sign would be great.

or just a concert of a band i like,would be great too...i miss to go to live´s.

only band i like will play this year here in berlin (T_T)

bands! where are you?????

*sigh*

またね～

Dir en grey and Distraught DIO Overlord

well yes,yesterday i went shopping with my mum and we also went to the Neo Tokyo♪

and here,that what i bought!




Distraught DIO Overlord´s DVD "TOUR DICTATOR" ♥

and

Dir en grey´s dvd "UROBOROS - with the proof in the name of living...- AT NIPPON BUDOKAN"♥

kyaaaaa~ i´m so happy!

i already saw dir en grey´s dvd at lyla´s home and was so impressed that i decided to buy it too ^^

and dio´s dvd i just watched a bit ,but not the whole one.

but i think i will watch with plushi tomorrow or so ^^

today we will go to the K17 and make some party,i think it will be fun~

well that´s all for today

see ya♥

text saturday

today i wrote a new text,coz yesterday something happened.

nothing special.

but here we are,with the new text ^^

enjoy♪

"Ignorance
Do you know,how it feels to be ignored?
Ignored by a person you like?
It happened again...
It feels like this person takes a knife and grooves it more and more into your heart.
Yes....this hurts.
Screaming for attention,but still being ignored.
Don´t you realize it?
Don´t you see it?
or...is it just,because you don´t care?
And again...my soul is breaking more..."


that´s it...

i hope you liked it!


see ya