I am not sure what to write... But I want to write something. But I don't know what to write about...
By the way, it is not formally correct to start a sentence with "But". But I write it because many people do that.
I have been suffering from severe back pain. It is chronic. It never goes away, never ever. How did I get it? Well, I am afraid but I cannot tell you that. I feel fatigue all the time because of this.
I use a big rubber ball to stretch my back, and it seems that is the only way to momentarily alleviate the pain. I used to take painkillers (over the counter) back in US, but I stopped taking it because it irritates my stomach.
anyway, I gotta write a report for tomorrow's job. Oh, here I found what I need to write! But you know, that is not what I "want" to write.,,
I like Buddhism. I don't really belong to any particular sect of Buddhism, but the basic concept of Buddhism fits very well with my perspectives towards the world.
Buddhism claims that life is suffering. What more depressing statement can you make? Life is suffering. But when you think about it carefully, that is the most relieving and powerful statement.
This statement can be rephrased as "It is what it is.". So you don't need to ask yourself, "Why is my life so miserable?" or "Why doesn't anything go right for me?". Because, it is what it is. Then you will be filled with the great feeling of relaxation.
I really think that religions should play more active role on healing modern people's soul. You may think that the role of religion has ended, but I disagree. I think that this is the era that religion can shine the brightest because the society is sick with depression. It is the whole purpose of religion; to find the cure for people's suffering. Religion is the healthiest medicine for people's wounded mind. Of course there are some bad religions too just like there are bad drugs.
Nowadays people in depression go to hospitals and get eventually dependent on chemicals, but the healing rate is still very low. I think it is because neither chemicals nor psychiatrists can really tell you the core value of life that many ill people in modern days had lost and strived to seek for.
There was no psychiatry 500 years ago anywhere in the world, but I believe high suicide rate was not a major social problem back then. People were poor, but they had faith.
I may be wrong, and I am very ill-informed of religious topics. I want to learn more about Buddhism, I welcome you to active discussions if interested.
Buddhism claims that life is suffering. What more depressing statement can you make? Life is suffering. But when you think about it carefully, that is the most relieving and powerful statement.
This statement can be rephrased as "It is what it is.". So you don't need to ask yourself, "Why is my life so miserable?" or "Why doesn't anything go right for me?". Because, it is what it is. Then you will be filled with the great feeling of relaxation.
I really think that religions should play more active role on healing modern people's soul. You may think that the role of religion has ended, but I disagree. I think that this is the era that religion can shine the brightest because the society is sick with depression. It is the whole purpose of religion; to find the cure for people's suffering. Religion is the healthiest medicine for people's wounded mind. Of course there are some bad religions too just like there are bad drugs.
Nowadays people in depression go to hospitals and get eventually dependent on chemicals, but the healing rate is still very low. I think it is because neither chemicals nor psychiatrists can really tell you the core value of life that many ill people in modern days had lost and strived to seek for.
There was no psychiatry 500 years ago anywhere in the world, but I believe high suicide rate was not a major social problem back then. People were poor, but they had faith.
I may be wrong, and I am very ill-informed of religious topics. I want to learn more about Buddhism, I welcome you to active discussions if interested.
I made ice cubes in a freezer and put them it in a bath bucket together with cold water. Putting it in front of a running fan, there goes a quick-made AC! Yes, it works, but it works for about 10 minutes...
Does anyone know how to get me to sleep sound?
When you are in depression, you tend to make many careless mistakes. I don't know, but some wires in your brain circuits may be gotten disconnected or something. It is tough and embarrassing, but you'll get used to it once you accept the bare fact that that's all you can do. It is the dilemma that you feel that you can't do what you used to be able to do, which makes your depression even worse, you know.
I used to rush things. I sometimes do, for example, when I eat. Nothing emergent awaits me after the meal, but I somehow shove foods in my mouth. It may be more of a habitual thing rather than the mental origin.
Japanese foods are quite easy to eat. They generally taste milder than American foods although sometimes it tastes quite earthy. When I was in US I used to dip everything into a pool of ketchup. Normally any fast food restaurants in US come with a ketchup dispenser where you can get as much ketchup as you want. I know it is not good for my health(you know ketchup contains not only high sodium but sugar too), but I got so used to it to the point that something doesn't feel right when I eat a hamburger without ketchup.
Of course I miss American flavor, because I was there for over 10 years. The American flavor, I would say, boils down to ketchup, BBQ and coke.
Well, this is just a little bla bla bla talk, being completely out of focus. So don't pay any attention to it. I am just lonely and tired. That's it. I will write something more serious sometime later.
Does anyone know how to get me to sleep sound?
When you are in depression, you tend to make many careless mistakes. I don't know, but some wires in your brain circuits may be gotten disconnected or something. It is tough and embarrassing, but you'll get used to it once you accept the bare fact that that's all you can do. It is the dilemma that you feel that you can't do what you used to be able to do, which makes your depression even worse, you know.
I used to rush things. I sometimes do, for example, when I eat. Nothing emergent awaits me after the meal, but I somehow shove foods in my mouth. It may be more of a habitual thing rather than the mental origin.
Japanese foods are quite easy to eat. They generally taste milder than American foods although sometimes it tastes quite earthy. When I was in US I used to dip everything into a pool of ketchup. Normally any fast food restaurants in US come with a ketchup dispenser where you can get as much ketchup as you want. I know it is not good for my health(you know ketchup contains not only high sodium but sugar too), but I got so used to it to the point that something doesn't feel right when I eat a hamburger without ketchup.
Of course I miss American flavor, because I was there for over 10 years. The American flavor, I would say, boils down to ketchup, BBQ and coke.
Well, this is just a little bla bla bla talk, being completely out of focus. So don't pay any attention to it. I am just lonely and tired. That's it. I will write something more serious sometime later.