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Tomorrow will be the GazettE's live here in São Paulo, Brazil. I just can say one thing: I'm very very very anxious! I'm waiting this day for SEVEN YEARS! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I'LL FINALLY SEE THEM LIVE! ÇSADHF~LAHFHFKÇHAF~KÇHÇDF~HJKJSFÇ
Yesterday I went to the airport to see them, and oh my God, they're perfect. I didn't touch in no one, i didn't even run after them I just saw them passing by me. And then I heard the "Click" in my head and ran to see them get on the van. They were so close to me. They passed right in front of me! I thought I was going to have a syncope. lol
Today I'm going to get the last things right and then I'll go to the line.

I can't even control myself from my anxiety. I haven't slept yet. I'm electric. Euphoric. Excited. I really can't wait for tomorrow.

I fuckin' love this band. I know I tend to keep this more to myself but that's because there are some people really annoying and stupid that likes to harsh EVERY GazettE's fan. I know that GazettE's fanbase is fucked up but there's still some people that are really nice and civilized. We can't generalize.

Well, fuck off!

The only thing I know is that tomorrow will be THE DAY. I hope we can make this live unforgettable for them. I hope they like the famous "crazy brazilian crowd". It'll be a very special day!

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I don't know how some people can easily forget about someone's existence. Or the relationship they had with this person. I still can't understand this.
Is, at last funny how these things - these feelings - seem to fade away with the time.
We start to grow up, and we learn that nothing can last forever. We learn to take responsibility. We learn that, in the end, we're all alone. That the best friend we had will not be that best anymore.

I don't know. Little by little, I'm losing all those that I consider impoortant. Maybe that's the way things really are.
I feel the things in a very strong and intesely way. That's my problem. That's why I can never get over anything. And I always keep myself overthinking about everything in my life.

I can't even understand myself. I just don't want my friends to leave me anymore.

the GazettE WORLD TOUR 13

LIFE IS VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL!

GUESS WHOS'S GOING TO THE GAZETTE'S WORLD TOUR?

This morning I got my VIP tickets for the GazettE's live. I'm so happy.
I've been waiting for so long and now I'm finally able to see them live.
It's a dream coming true. I still can't believe.
the GazettE was my favourite band for many years and even though they aren't my favourites anymore I still love them very much. They still on my TOP favourite.
VIP tickets were SOLD OUT in 20 minutes. For a moment I got desperate because I thought I'd couldn't buy my tickets since the server was crashing. But in the end everything worked out.
Now that I have my ticket guaranteed, I'll just wait until September 14th to finally see my boys.
I think I'll freak out and cry my soul out. lol But I'm sure that this day will be one of the best days of my entire life! I'm very excited!

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I'm felling tired of myself.
I'm through bad times. Can't deal with my own past. It makes me wanna cry so hard.
Maybe I deserve everything that's happening to me. I acted badly with some people. But you know, I've not regret anything.
My only regret was to act so childish and stubborn with a certain person.
I wish I could back to these times. I'd do everything differently.
You already forgot me but I can't get over you and forget you or the feelings I have for you. It sucks.
I know it was my fault. I know I can't complain but I still want to be with you.
I guess I've never been so honest than when I said I loved you. And I still love you even now after two years.
I want to talk to you again but I can't. I know you're happy with another person and it tears me apart. I know I should move on but I can't.
I just wanted you to know that I miss you more and more every day. And I love you even more than I loved at that time.
I don't think I can ever forget you, but I can pretend and I'm a good liar.

KISS - MONSTER TOUR / 18 and life

[Thats me before going to the show]

On November 17th was the KISS concert here in Sao Paulo and I went with my dad, my brother, my cousin and my uncle.
I have no words to express how I felt in that live. It was perfect. Beyond my expectations. That hole pyrotechnic thing.
It was unbelievable. Only those who was there knows how it feels. Really. Amazing.
When they come back, I'll go to see them again. Because it's very worth.
In the next year I hope I can go to Bon Jovi, CRASHDÏET, Lacuna Coil (maybe) and I really want MIYAVI to come so I can see him again.


[From the left to the right: Dad, me, my brother and my uncle]


[Paul Stanley ♥]


And on November 30th was my birthday. 18 years. Now I can legally do everything I did before.
18 and life you got it. 18 and life you know your crime is time and it's 18 and life to go
So, happy birthday to me!